luminous andrewkin

A comeback?

2008-12-10T21:14:00.001+08:00

Not bad

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1zeR3NSYcHk

123RF ... anyone?

2008-07-02T01:31:00.000+08:00

Mallaca Jan'08 - Random 5

2008-01-19T18:26:00.000+08:00

Reef Central

Alice Bday - 6th Jan

2008-01-09T18:50:00.000+08:00

and outside ...

Xmas Eve & Edward's Bday Party

2007-12-26T21:36:00.000+08:00

and thank you Er Ge and Claire for the beautiful Xmas gift, your the best *hugs*

Genting Xmas Trip!

2007-12-24T03:01:00.000+08:00

Great trip! More pictures to come from the other cameras ...

Pre-Xmas PARTEE

2007-12-20T21:48:00.000+08:00

Mari Keris Mas ... thank you lo pan for the wonderful, fun-filled laughter gathering ...

Singapore 2007 - DAY ONE

2007-12-13T00:23:00.000+08:00

Singapore 2007 - DAY TWO

2007-12-13T00:20:00.000+08:00

Singapore 2007 -LAST DAY

2007-12-13T00:13:00.001+08:00

Peggy's 25th

2007-11-26T00:29:00.000+08:00

Happy burfday you cat lover! Hope you love the gathering at Chillis!

Phillip Lightbulb @ Tony Romas

2007-11-26T00:25:00.000+08:00

Lunch with love bird, Esther and Justin

Headlines

2007-11-17T03:42:00.001+08:00

Leo's Birthday

2007-11-11T18:21:00.000+08:00

Have been really busy lately. Thus, the late post. So sorry ...

Clement's Farewell

2007-11-11T18:10:00.000+08:00

For more photos, you can also visit the link below ... Photos are available upon request. Cheers!

http://www.osmansany.com/josh/friends/clementfarewell/clementfarewell.htm

Another lost ... the last heart

2007-11-05T23:41:00.000+08:00

It has been a great journey. I was away from Internet, "learning new things" without any influence. Thinking back, this year was one of the most painful years. K was right ... A lot of lost. I lost my relationship about two months ago, I lost someone I really love and care, I lost some close friends, I lost my pets and the most severe ... was losing myself, directions, thoughts and purpose in life. The past 10 months especially the the past 7 weeks was filled with misery, pain, hurt and loneliness. A lot of sacrifice were made and a lot of tears shed. But that's all in the past. All the loss have made me realize a lot of things in life. Loss ... a fresh new start. What is important, what is not, who is and how to live my life ... the way I want, the happy way... the content way ... the way things should have been ...

One things for sure, I am not going to let anyone, including myself to hurt me ... enough is enough. Some might find it cruel ... but I really do no need another stab, again ... enough is enough.

I know that when you write something here or do anything at all, there is always a cause and effect. I guess that's life. But what the heck ... when I started this blog, I wanted to my friends, people around me and readers to just know who and what I am doing in my life. But I realize after a series of events, it doesn't matter what you write ... it's people choice to choose to believe or care. It's only human. No expectation ... but that's life. At the end of the day, everyone just want the best for themselves. Selfish ... for your own good ... something I am finding hard to accept but it is the truth anyway.

During my entire life, I tried being that person where I can "spread the love", especially to people I truly care, especially friends since I never had them since high school ... I want to be that person everyone care and look up to. Friends calling me for this and that. But it never really happened. Naive eh? I admit, I was giving myself too much stress. Unecessary ones!

I guess I never really knew how to deal with people - relationship or friendship. Never knew how to deal with problems that comes with it. I rather keep everything to myself and solve it without getting friends worried, without being judge and without causing any pain. A fear I should have face long time ago. All I wanted was everyone to be happy ... and then it dawns upon you that you are not god ... you can't control everything. When I finally found that special person ... I didn't want to lose him, and I did many things to myself ... thinking it would all go away. Believing the false, being blinded and long story cut short, everything that has happened taught me something more than life.

Of course things got rocky and I started to learn to share with friends. Tell them everything, share the pain and the effect was scary. Some friends choose to distant me, some started judging me and some even hate me. You can say anything you want, but at the end ... I felt it, and it was genuine. It was hard to deal with ... lost a few, gain a few. Well, I am still positive about what happened. Like Ta Ge and Er Ge both said, now you know who you should love more and those that loved you unconditionally. Truly, it was an eye opener. Both filled with disappointments and happiness.

I guess the most important is what I have learned ... should I say still learning?

Ya ... you may already know this. But saying is so much easier than doing. Life is not just about knowing. To certain degree, it is about making room for understanding and then taking the extra effort to face and deal with it. Then how you deal with it requires you to think with your mind, heart and soul whether is it the right or wrong way to deal with it. Why? The process doesn't just involve you ... it involves people around you, family, friends and loved ones. Its not only about yourself. If you are caring ... then taking others' into consideration without judging them counts. Something I regret not doing in the past. Being responsible for what you have done and accept the fact that the consequences in life is very very cruel and I learn that the hard way ... but to be able to move on for a better direction, the right direction is something many would not choose to do.

I accept whatever that will come in the future. I went through a lot ... those who had been around me knows and I know you guys are asking me to take a break. I promise you ... I am and I will ... What's the point of saying things over and over again, asking the same questions over and over again and hurting myself over and over again ... when at the end, the uncertainty is there and you can't control it.

We never know what will happen tomorrow. Better to just do it ...

This would be my last personal-cum-heart to heart post ... I rather let others discover whatever that I am worth. I will only be posting pictures of events in my life. To come, the blated Clement's farewell pictures ... and Leo's lil birthday gathering

Ta for now and thanks for the support, if there are still any readers out there.

Blanko

2007-10-22T09:09:00.001+08:00

I spend the weekends with great companies. As usual, being me ... I tend to digest everything and reflect myself in any possible situation. A hobby I found, self improvement. I realize something new every time someone said something.

Giving up meant losing something important
By being afraid, you have expose yourself to a weak point
Being stronger doesn't mean you are more responsible
If you are happy doesn't mean you are content
One things for sure, if you have a heart of stone, you are emotionless
Sensible humans do things that will not hurt themselves
Humans are selfish. Great friends are not
If you love a person more, it hurts more.
If you are the one being love, you have more power.
By Eva, loving someone ... you are opening yourself to hurt and pain. It's an inevitable package

I guess "mat yeah de yao tat lei kong". Everything also can be said. It really depends on the individual. But one things for sure, life is like a circle. For everything bad, comes a good. For every love, comes a hate. For every contentment in life, comes disappointments. For every pain, comes a better day. It's not how you feel at the end of the day but it's how you deal with it.

After the whole episode of my infidelity, I realize that you owe yourself a good exploration and self learning process. If it hurts every bit to travel along the road ... it means you are still human, a respectable one. Thank you my friends for reminding me this. Some people took their whole lifetime to understand that fact. Some may not even have to go through it. Some may realize it only in their fifties. But well, everyone is different. I am glad I am going through this. Although I can't accept myself for what I have done. It's something I should always look at. My past has been really tough ... and yet, it still looks very dark. I may have to go through it alone and never expected anyone to go through it with me ... but thanks to those who are willingly to journey it with me without judging me.

At different stages of life, you learn different things. That's the truth. One thing's for certain ... I intend to keep those promises I made. It's better late than never and because it is worth every single pain and hurt

I should end this post. I am blogging it straight from what I feel and think and it may have sound utterly ridiculous.

Two cents from Melb

2007-10-19T07:41:00.000+08:00

Want to know something? It's not enough if you want to do it ... you have to think about it. Don't let it skip your mind. If you have issues ... think about it, face it and think again. I guess I haven't been doing a lot of thinking in my past. I have always been the radical person that puts feelings first. Art boy ma!

It's not wrong ... but don't ignore the brain (it tells you what is right, proper and acceptable). Flashback to Art, Embodiment unit ... I still remember the time I argue with K about how feelings are sometimes more important than thoughts. I guess, only on certain occasion ...

Well, big boy liao la! Better use more brains.

Maybe that's the reason why I am hardly asleep nowadays. I compensate what I missed last time by doing more thinking now. Thanks Karen ...

Peggy's fault!

2007-10-18T07:14:00.000+08:00

Peggy told me that eating makes you happy. I don't think so! With my eating behavior ... it's making me fat rather than happy. I mean, having extra fat is not a bad thing for me, but when I have this "tyre" on my waist and everything else is like a lamp post ... it's horrible!

AND

why the food-aka-fats only goes there? Why not my arm? or my legs? or my flat chest? ... one way or another ... it only concentrates on the stomach and all around it.

Try stuffing a huge pelampung onto a lamp post ...

Now ... that's me if I continue to believe Peggy that eating makes you feel happy. Somehow, after eating during break time at work ... I do feel better ... and jenny makes delicious deserts ...

OK!

CONCENTRATE ON THE PELAMPUNG LAMP POST ...

734am. Class at 830am

2007-10-17T07:24:00.000+08:00

I slept so much yesterday, I don't think I can sleep today. Blame it on the weather ... and the fact that I didn't want to bother about filling up my time on a tuesday afternoon. Well, I will be packing my bags to gym. Body combat a lil ... then maybe work on my flat chest.

I am happy to see Jenny finally smiling today. She smiles quite often, but I miss her strong, encouraging and loud giggle. I can't remember when was the last time she did that ... I think it was the time when we bought meehoon goreng sambal with daging near my place. Trust me, that was quite some time ago!

As long as she is happy ... that's good. To the irresponsible partner ... I think you better try and proof her wrong ... that you do care. But even if you don't ... well ... your loss then. Word of advice ... Do not under estimate the power of mouth because news travel ...

To Jenny ... you will always have us to help. Just holler, I don't mind helping ... I might cause more trouble ... but hey ... what's friendship if we don't laugh a lil, cause some trouble and still manage to give each other a hug at the end of the day!

This is a long post ...

2007-10-16T20:44:00.000+08:00

Sekian lama, Puasa pun berakhir. Tak sempat menjemu kat IKEA juga.

Anywayz ... it has been a tough weekend. I looked myself in the mirror today and saw some fugly fellow with rotten hair, hangover look, baggy eyes, bad breath and depressing complexion. Lack of sleep, lack of confident and a whole lots of pity crap shit. Whatever it is ... I am facing myself la ... Back to blog sphere, where do I begin ... let's go according to chronological order ...

Friday ...

Actually my weekend started earlier ... I took medical leave on Friday and spend the whole night being taken care by Grace. As a sister ... she did a swell job. Thanks girl for driving me around, visiting places, eating mcD, forcing meds down my throat and being with me ... didn't want to stay home and you have been a great company. You too Vynn!!!

Amazingly, after the 4am MCD breakfast and 2 hours of sleep later, we are up for Dim Sum! We had talks ... I realize that's what we do. Talk talk talk. You girl have been very supportive and I will remember to bring myself up, take good care of myself and believe in my dreams. OK ... I still doubt that ... but like you girls said ... it's not my battle alone. Anyway, I brought my D80 along and pictures pictures ...

Grace ... aka ... Ta Jie

I miss her already ... come down soon k! Muax

Yummy ... I love love love ... the mien mien fried thinge ... er ... can't remember the name

Then the girls decided to get a hoop ... konon mahu kuruskan the waist

I never even consider buying that ... NEVER ...unless mahu jadi Kate Moss

Saturday ...

As soon as the girls drove me back. I was as dead as ever ... thanks to the heavy dose of meds. I slept ... till 6pm. When I was awake ... no one was home. My aunt had a miscarriage and everyone drove back to Perak to visit her. I still didn't know why I was left at home until I got a sms from my mum:

"Take care of the house"

I rolled my eyes. Damn ... I am going to rot at home. I hate it when the house is empty. It's either I rot at home or I rot outside. Second choice seem more viable. I felt like clubbing, and who was the right person to call? Who else than Jimmy Glam!!! Cepat tukar baju and I drove to his place. We were at Sugar Club (I find that name ... weird) but they serve Vodka Lime ... yummy! Sky, Raymond and friends were there too. But Jimmy, Ed, Wick, Claire and a bunch of us adjourn to LQ ... as the crowd were mainly ... young boys. We went into LQ and it was PACKED! That was like the first time I was there ... without someone to cling onto. I just held onto Claire and ask her to company me. So we dance away to awful music and sigh away to the beat. At the end, seeing Ed drunk was the most memorable event of the night ...

"Wo yao chi Pao Pi"

Sunday ...

I drove home and took care of the house that night. A long, slow drive at 5am. I look at the road and it reminded me of something nice. I got home and doze off.

As soon as I was awake. Mum's back. So weird. One day they are gone ... and one day they are back. Went off for second round and this time around... I got drunk. Not "drunk" but high. Claire was having fun seeing two drunks (jimmy and I) talk ... I can't remember what I said. Well, only she knows ... After a whole lots of dancing (and running around), drinking and laughing ... everyone slept like babies. Except me of course ... being the special "notti" baby ... I watched the monday sunrise and still feel like crap shit ... alcohol la tu! Sakit kepala tak boleh tido la!

OK, clubbing straight for two nights in 4 different clubs was tiresome. One way of releasing stress, working your abdominals (with all the body row and hip shake, it gotta work), meeting new friends and sweat. The reason why we were club-hopping-around were because; bad music good crowd ... or good music with no crowd. There's always something missing and it's very sad. Well, at the end, I reckon the company is more important. My partner for both night was mostly Claire (the GF I never had!) and thanks Wick for the shoulder ...

Monday continues on ...

Jogoya!!! I was literally a zombie walking around ... gathering food. Half asleep, half hungry and half dead. It was fun afterall ... me and Claire really shared everything ... my gawd ... I tell you ... she is really becoming the GF ... haha ... dream on! Anyway ... here are some pictures ...

Claire, Wick, Jimmy

Some of Ed and Jimmy's friends ... actually everyone is there already :P

Thanks Er Ge ... there is nothing more I can ask from you

I love this lighting, damn it! Too bad I wasn't in a coat ... or not could have pose abit for Lust, Caution! Hhahaha

After the makan session, we went jalan-jalan at Pavillion. Tired as hell ... but what the heck. BTW, Thanks for the invitation SL ... Do we get to see Jolin that night? Haha!!! Sekian 2 jam berjalan .. I KO inside Jimmy's car. As soon as I was home, I had only 3 hour to sleep before work. As I step out of the car, Jimmy gave me a look. A look of concern and love I missed a lot. I told myself ... OK ... time to swallow a few tablets and get plenty of rest. I did ... and after 8 hours of monotonous work ... here I am ... looking at myself in front of the mirror and saw this fugly fellow with rotten hair, hangover look, baggy eyes, bad breath and depressing complexion. Lack of sleep, lack of confident and a whole lots of pity crap shit ... blogging

FINE, the truth is I miss spending the weekend the old way ... but well ... time to go to bed.

Wah!

2007-10-11T07:20:00.000+08:00

OK ... it's been a month. Yea ... it felt like years ... but reality is ... it's still a month. I almost forgot the art and fun of growing up, being alone ... walking in the park at night, driving around and just be honest to yourself. Feel what you want, be what you want and do crazy things. Claire, Sarah and Jimmy ... if you are reading this, better keep "that night" to yourself! .

To be honest, it was a mixed of both fun and pain. But face yourself! It's one of the hardest things to do ... but it's worth it. Life is short man ... don't dwell into it. I amuses myself every time I want to do something new. I am beginning to like being alone. Don't get me wrong, not that I am a loner but I hate crowds. With all the time in the world, I actually spend more time with friends. Chatting away and bitching about stuff. Something I truly enjoy ... and now ... nothing is holding me back. I just can't wait till this coming weekend ...

Can't wait to meet Vynn and Grace. Mahu slumber ka? Hehe

BTW ... I love this building

by Denton Corker Marshall

Hurt

2007-10-09T07:49:00.000+08:00

I can't believe it. I have hurt the two most important person in my life within a short one month. One, my mum ... two, Kenny. Mum and I had a heart to heart talk earlier this morning and both of us end up crying. It was not about Wiggle, my new pet hamster ... but mainly it was about me ...

My system is crashing on me and yet I chin up and keep telling myself to be strong, to be wise and to be a better person. It's a difficult and painful path I have chosen to take ... but it is worth every second because it is for myself ... since my pillar cannot be by my side ... I shall be my own pillar ...

I swear I will never let them cry again. If I could take all their pain and bear it alone, I will because I love them truly and with no expectations. Forgive me mum for the things I have never did to make you proud ...

What a night!

2007-10-07T15:13:00.000+08:00

Eva, Lynn and I finally sat down and had our wacky girl talk session. Guess how long it lasted?

6 freaking hours! From 11pm all the way to 4am. That was only the three of us. I met Eva earlier about 6pm ... and we have been talking ever since then!

It was so much fun, catching up, talking about movies, what we are doing, our life, work, revisiting moments back in Uni, bitching about friends, gossiping about people we do not even know, teaching each other tactics to get a new guy, the art of flirting and yes ... we yap alot about love and boys. The amazing thing is that ... we talked none stop ... no resting gap at all!

Comm students ma!

We went to 3 different cafes just spending time talking away like mak ciks. It was so much fun. I wanted to take pictures of us but the bimbo me only brought the camera and left the battery at home.

Next time then ...

Too bad we missed two kakis. Grace and Damaris ... if you reading this ... you owe us a mak cik meetup! Buahaha

No One - Alicia Keys

2007-10-06T19:33:00.000+08:00

I just want you close
Where you can stay forever
You can be sure
That it will only get better
You and me together
Through the days and nights
I don’t worry cuz
Everythings gonna be alright
People keep talking
They can say what they like
But all I know is everything’s gonna be alright

No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I’m feeling
No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you
You you
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

When the rain is pouring down
And my heart is hurting
You will always be around
This I know for certain

You and me together
Through the days and nights

I don’t worry cuz
Everythings gonna be alright
People keep talking
They can say what they like
But all I know is everything’s gonna be alright

No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I’m feeling
No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you
You you
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

I know some people search the world
To find something like what we have
I know people will try
Try to divide
Something so real
So till the end of time
I’m telling you that

No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I’m feeling
No one no one no one
Can get in the way of what I feel for you

IT'S 5th!

2007-10-05T18:14:00.000+08:00

I finally went back to school today. Call it soul searching or whatever, it was quite an experience. The last time I was there was about 4 years ago. Many things have changed but some remained the same. The memories are there (especially the really awful ones) but I smile through.

Being able to see some of the mural paintings done by my own hands, my "beauty work" decorating the classroom corridor and teacher's impression still lives on. I was surprise some teachers remembered me. I guess I was really rebellious back in school ... lol

Took some photos.

Pink? How Diva ... wonder who is the new Pengetua ...

This is new ... I didnt know we had such green gardens

Believe it or not, I used to play there

Tempat berkumpul semasa rehat.

hmmm ... lol

One place where I spent 80% of my teenage years in

I wonder why they didn't repaint the block ...

My bike shed ... tempat letak basikal ... hehe

Ironic, I took this pic last. I guess, everything comes back to square one

Transparency

2007-09-28T14:22:00.000+08:00

I am worst than a slut. Yes, that was the reason I why I broke off. The main killer of PLU relationship ... a good example, me. Please learn from me!

No matter what are my reasons of my doing, they are only excuses. I am transparent now, I don't care how people look at me or see me. I am me, a cleaner and smarter me ... believe it or not ... somethings cannot be change, but people can grow and the older you are, the wiser your decision making will be.

I accept the fact I have been a disgrace, dirty and manipulative person. Someone who preaches the wrong doing and someone who lies to cover my own weakness. I accept the fact that I was insecure with myself and was in denial. I didn't want to be lonely thinking that everything I did can be hidden forever ... I guess sometimes, you need to be lonely to grow.

But I am glad I came out that way. Everything happened for a reason. I am going to brace it myself, accept the coming and learn to grow up. I am weak, amputated and feeling uncertainty every moment. The hardship and suffering will come. But I will not give up. My little voice will help ...

For who I want to be and be with, I believe I can do it

It feels good to be transparent and to my dear friends, thank you for not judging me. I promise you guys that I will be better ... smarter ... and cleaner ...

Lesson to learn : Change for the better of yourself, be selfish. Admit your fault and move on strong.

AK14UKT

7th day

2007-09-26T07:33:00.000+08:00

A week. It felt long ... but it was worth it.

Happy autumn and mooncake festival everyone!!!

Next please

2007-09-20T14:56:00.000+08:00

So, what's next?

Growing up ... only one thing have to change. I guess the rest will pretty much remain. Afterall, I am still me and knowing me ... sigh! Sorry dearest friends - you've gotta support me through this even if I am doing something silly. What to do? I just wanna be content and happy. Thanks for the ears, shoulders, hands, arms, legs and mouth.

Don't Cry

2007-09-18T17:02:00.000+08:00

Today, someone ask me ... why is the weather like that? That is how i feel at the moment. He replied, things will be fine. It's been rough. It's been really rough...

A huge part of me is lost, taken away and I deserve it. It's a feeling that only tears can express. I felt cheated by own. I brought myself to the next level to have get the courage to look into his eyes and believe that he made the right choice. It was hard. It wasn't something I want to do, or need to do but I have to do it. It was only fair and within time perhaps ... he will heal ... move on and ... find a better. I will grow but he will too. For better or worse, let time tell.

Some feelings would never change. It's a name and birthmark that lives with you forever. I am that kinda person. I will always fight for something I believe worth fighting for. But often, its not always you. Sometimes the best thing to do is cruelly hurt yourself to move on.

I am listening to the same melodic tune, season of fireworks. The same song I played 5 years ago when I left that special someone. Today, history repeats. Same mood, same song but different person. I suppose no one will every understand why I drown myself in sad songs. I suppose the imperfection in life makes you treasure the perfection in it.

Well ... I guess Fergie's right. Big girls don't cry....

Hairy Issue

2007-09-12T08:14:00.000+08:00

I am losing hair. Unfortunately it is not my body hair. I am not too sure of the reasons, but the amount is enough to raise the alarm.

Grad pictures

2007-09-10T02:52:00.000+08:00

Here are the pictures for my grad. Then, it will be back to normal post. Hopefully soon. Happy Puasa to all my muslim friends, readers, anti-fans and stalkers out there!

It was held at the E&O Hotel at Penang

Mum and Grandma, the most happiest person

I like this picture ... dunno why

Talking to Sally Walker, Professor and Vice-Chancellor of Deakin Uni

Famile Portrait ...

Thank you Kenny for taking the pictures!

Langkawi 2007 - Part II

2007-08-31T17:02:00.000+08:00

As promised, here is part two. Apologize for the delayed post, busy busy. Anyway, I will let the pictures do the talking on this post. It wasn't that bad except the part where it rained when we were island hoping. The rest is still the same; dreadful car ride without air cond, spending more time traveling out of hotel than traveling around ... yada yada

We started of with Dayang Bunting Lake, at Dayang Bunting Island!!! ~

Awana Port Malai Ali ... where the journey begins ...

As we climbed in, we could felt droplets ... it was raining

Ariel was excited about the boat ride. She didn't quite care about the weather

The rain hit us during the journey there ...

A picture of Dayang Bunting ... the pregnant maiden ... not bad ... the mountain actually looks like that ...

We arrived! Now time to hike ...

It was still raining ...

We got our foot massage from fishes in the lake. Kinda fun but we can't do anything else cos it was still raining.

We saw monkeys everywhere, usual sight ... but one with a Cadbury waffle was rare. Pity the poor boy who lost his snack to this monkey

This rascal even had nasi lemak!

The rain subsided and the view was much better ...

Me!

- EAGLE FEEDING - PULAU SINGA BESAR

We stopped in the middle of the sea near Pulau Singa Besar to see flocks of eagle diving into the water, feeding on chicken skin which the locals feed them everyday ... not sure if that is right but the some of the eagles came from a conversation center, some are from the nature and some are pets!

According to the locals, Langkawi was named after Helang (eagle) and Kawi (a type or rock, marble I suppose)

There is two species of eagles; the white one (this pic) which is bigger in size, more graceful in flight and shy, while the brown ones (the one you see in Kuah's Jetty) is smaller in size, more temperamental and wild.

I did not photoshop this! haha ... Trust me, it's difficult to capture images of animals in motion!

- PANTAI BERAS BASAH -

The reason why they called it Pantai Beras Basah (Wet Rice Beach) was because of the sand that has the color of the grain and is always wet ... even up to high dry areas. Weird ...

People everywhere ... Can't get a nice quiet beach picture

Ariel wanted me to try that ... erm ... not in front of my parents

Didn't brought any swimwear ... that is the best they could do ...

-TANJUNG RHU -

Tanjung Rhu Resort. $400 per night for standard room ... quite expensive, but I am sure it is worth the stay

Ariel ... posing

Mum and Dad was walking around, scouting for a place to sit

Stunning! The view was magnificent

Was trying an artistic shot ... did it work?

Looks like a scene from one of those of scary movie ... haha

Beautiful Sunset ... Tanjung Rhu

After that, we had our last night and travel to Penang for my graduation the following morning. Next to come; graduation pictures ... shot by Kenny!

Langkawi 2007 - Part I

2007-08-28T18:57:00.000+08:00

I didn’t enjoy the trip. It was mainly because I did not get what I want from the trip. Overall the vacation was quite stressful, tiresome and I fell sick. Totally the opposite from what you are suppose to get from a vacation.

Anyway, the journey to north began soon after I finished work last Monday. It was a bright morning and I couldn’t sleep in the car. Moreover, my mum was chatting with grandma and I don’t have the heart to stop them. With my tired eyes, fatigue and a mild fever coming up, we reached Kuala Kedah Jetty about 3pm. As soon as we boarded off the car, I started feeling much better and took out my camera

Pak Teh Enterprise - Very interesting business name for a small town

The boat ride to Langkawi was hell! The sea was rough and the ferry aks speedboat was no where near comfort. It was like a roller coaster ride, up down right left everywhere. The first 10 minutes was fun but after that, everyone started to quiet down. The ride lasted an hour. As soon as we got off, passengers started vomiting, some cried (kids of course) and some cursed away (I was one of them). Angela and Ariel was in such a faulty mood, they didn’t even say a single word after that. Mum was dizzy and grandma – speechless.

The Journey begins ...

The Ferry we took - RM18 for a whole lots of headache

For your information, I manage to get some advice from a local. She said that its advisable to travel before noon time to prevent sea sick and rough rides. Alternatively, you can travel further to Kuala Perlis Jetty by land (about 30-45 min) and take a Ferry from there where the route is smoother and shorter by sea ride.

Kuah Jetty lated and situated next to the airport. The room rates were very cheap. We got 2 family rooms, each with 2 queen size bed and paid RM 888 for 3 nights.

Nice bed. Not too bad.

For the price, we got pretty bad housekeeping (no missing items) but we have to constantly ask for our toilet rolls, towels, door mats and also whatever that is missing in the room. As we stroll down the beach, it was shocking to see a pipe line and bridge across the sea. The resort was near an industrial factory and although there were no noises, the view was destroyed. Worse, the resort is located next to Damai Resort, deserted, and haunted.

If you look closely, the black line is the pipe, on top of it is the bridge

The good thing ever happened that day was of course the bath tub, which was huge and duty free shopping. Chocolates and Liquors are so cheap! SO SO CHEAP! A one liter JackDaniel Whisky is only rm55 and Hershey chocolates are going for RM10 for 5! Even dinner was cheap. My entire family had a meal for RM75 in the Kuah. Of course, Langkawi’s city center, Kuah is only about 5-street wide. According to Mum, it was Mahsuri's doing - the curse where Langkawi will not be developed for 7 generations and a whole long story. Kinda funny I thought. As we all call it for the night, my throat began to ache.

The thing that saved my trip

.....

As day two arrived, the first thing we did was to exchange our rented car. Dad’s seat belt is not working and the car has no validation license. JPJ was busy summoning drivers and of course, the companies which rented out the cars. Piece of advice, there will be a lot of human vultures scavenging for business even before you arrive at Langkawi. Learn to say NO, even if they were representing Tourism Malaysia! Hotel’s recommendations are usually more expensive but I believe a marginal RM20 will save you a lot of time and give you a piece of mind. Also, try to get a Waja or Wira – their air conds work wonders. As soon as we exchange our Wira for a Kia, the air cond broke down. You don’t want that in Langkawi because it’s striking sunny and burning hot. If you have to travel at least 20 min every time you leave your accommodation to get somewhere with human or for food (like mine), you will curse your way.

Renting the car - RM80 for Wira, a day without petrol. Not very cheap.

Second day; we visited Makam Mahsuri, Kuah Town, Jetty Area, Port near to Berjaya Resort and Langkawi Geo Park.

Unfortunately, no pictures are allowed at Makam Mahsuri (grandma disallow) except for this bird.

Makam Mahsuri was not that bad. Historical place. Took a long time to translate everything for Ariel. She look confused at the end with all the names and artifacts in the museum. I wanted to go into one of the wooden house but ever-superstitious grandma stopped me. Ghost. She even disallow me to take pictures; unless it's trees or birds.

As evening approach, we went to one of the private port near Berjaya Resort. The view was magnificent during sunset. It's located north west of the island and took about 30minutes drive from Langkasuka. I wish I had a private boat. BTW, the Geo Park, more well known as Langkawi Cable Car and the Telaga Tujuh is also situated near there. Kinda a tourist area. Did I took the Cable Car? No ... Why? Cos it looks so scary. The Cable car goes across two mountain peaks. No way I am taking it.

One of the ports near berjaya

Beautiful ~ One of the resort next to the port

As usual, dad hardly smiles

(l - r) Mum, Ariel, Grandma, Angela, and Me. Dad is photographer

More pictures to come in part II

Langkawi ...

2007-08-20T17:07:00.000+08:00

... here I come! Can't believe it is August already. The last time it was August, I was back in Australia - enjoying spring. Sigh, time flies. Since I was back in Malaysia, I reckon life has not been really that bad. Work was not bad, could be better.

Anyway, I will be away on vacation with my family in Langkawi, far north for four days. Then, while driving back south, we will stop by at Penang for my graduation! Finally ... the ceremony is here! I am all packed and ready to go. I wonder will Vynn have enough time to meet me up.

Thanks Anthony for temaning me on Sunday! Lastly, I would like to thank all my friends for my blated birthday gifts; the three design books from PageOne Kinokuniya and chipping in for my future camera gadget. Hugs, Love ya'all.

Merdeka Ad

2007-08-15T07:19:00.001+08:00

Is it me, or the Merdeka Ads are late?

It's almost 31st and I have not even seen a single Merdeka Ad on TV!
...

...

...

Maybe the advertisements got banned ...

Follow up Checkup

2007-08-14T18:48:00.000+08:00

Was having problem blogging since a few days ago. Dunno why ....

I had my follow-up checkup today back in Sunway Hospital. After a string of bad experience there, it seems so weird to walk into the hospital again. My follow up results are good, no cancerous growth, the anal fissure is gone, wound is healing faster than what the doctor is expected and my doctor is getting richer. The consultation took less than 15 minutes and it cost RM60. Previously, when I was in the sick bed, each visit from Dr. Q cost RM180. My surgery was RM5000 .... No wonder he can afford that watch!

Anyway, I finally took some time exploring my D80. Had a mini little studio set up and some of the pictures turn out quite well. The pictures are fairly huge, but here are a few of them...

I just can't seem to get the whole background white. Perhaps it is the cloth, or lighting or maybe my camera setting.

Shot was taken outside my house, with a white cloth placed at the wall. I only used natural sun light. The effect wasn't there but the results were not that bad.

Overall, the shooting session took some time off my Monday afternoon. Setting up was time consuming, not having an assistant is quite troublesome and trying to get the photo you want is even harder. If you think taking picture is that simple, think again! Would just like to thank my two sisters for helping out even when it was hot outside.

Thank you Ariel and Angela, and the bunch of oranges!

Birthday Surgery @ Sunway Hospital

2007-08-07T13:55:00.000+08:00

I had to share the room with three other uncles. Why? Insurance. It was an experience. One hell of a bad experience.

Uncle A in front of me is in a Coma. You can often hear him choking on his breathing machine, releasing loud coughs, nurses running and rushing around him, calming him. Not a pretty sight.
Uncle B next to me snores so loud, you wish you could choke him. He talks so loud, you wish you could choke him. His mobile rings so loud, you wish you could choke him and his relative is as loud as him, you wish your friends were there to choke all of them.
Uncle C is always missing in action. He just walks out of the hospital until the nurses call him. How would I know the nurses call him? Our ward is right next to the counter, you can literally hear the nurses chat.

Yes, noise noise noise. Yes, I didn't get any good rest. Yes, it was hell.

Then, we have the part where the nurses are so full of shit. Firstly, they left me in the operating theater for an hour after I was awake from the operation. Enduring pain for an hour without pain killer is worse than hell. The operating theater called my ward 4 times and no one came for me. Excuse given, they were busy. Then, I found out that the whole delay including the opt took 2 hours. Initially, they told my parents it was only a 30min process. Forgetting to inform my parents about my condition is unforgivable. The left my parents waiting and worried sick.

As I doze off in the ward, I could hear loud chatters from the nurses at the counter. I could hear uncles coughing and talking away. I was asleep with stress in my mind. A fever was developing.

I woke up a few hours later to find myself alone, hungry. Meal was served. I ate and vomited. Normal reaction due to anesthetic from the operation. But it was not normal to have no nurses attending to me. SMSed Kenny for help. Struggled to get the emergency button. Then someone came, wish me well and told me to rest. Again I was drugged without food.

Woke up at midnight. Painful and hungry. The nurse came and said "If you want milo, tell me and then we can make you one". I said ok, she poured the water and left the milo powder right next to the glass. Then, she walked off without even looking at me. The glass and mini container was placed so far within my reach, I gave up trying to get the drink. I rather starve than to move my ass and make the drink myself.

Later a nurse came in and gave me pain killers. Again, they left the medicine right next to the milo powder. Do I look like I can stretch my arm like a rubber band? Is it so hard to just bloody pass me the stuff???

What ticked me off? They told me to soak my ass in salt water to reduce the pain. Again they left me in the toilet and totally forgot about me. I had to stand up, watched my ass bleed and ring the god damn emergency button again. The head nurse rushes in and apologized. She gave her team a death stare and personally helped me.

Finally I got to go home and I had to wait for the bloody bill to be settled. Of course, the nurses told me that I was fit enough to leave the bed. I did - in good karma for other patients admitting. After an hour, I began to have a headache and my dad notice blood stains on my pants. I was bleeding again, and the management panic and rearrange another room for me. My dad didn't understand why they asked me to leave my bed.

My dad was furious, he lashed out at the management for ill treating me. Mum took me home. I left the hospital about 12 and my dad is still there right now (2pm) waiting for the bill to be settled because my doctor did not sign a document receipt to be issued as payment. So, now my dad has to wait for the doctor ... and they expected me to wait that long.

Dad told me the bill came up to $8000 ... I say, not worth a single penny at all. The only time I ever get good service was when I ordered a hot chocolate from the Starbucks downstairs.

Is it me being too dramatic or the staff at the hospital are just irresponsible, insensitive and despicable ? Maybe that is why Uncle C tries to escape from the ward 3 times yesterday. I don't know, but I would NEVER recommend the hospital to anyone.

What a birthday to remember

Birthday 2007

2007-08-06T05:47:00.002+08:00

Ah! I am one year older. That sucks ...

The funny thing is that most of my birthdays are really cursed. This year, I will be singing birthdays songs in the operating theater. Yes, I am going for a surgery to dispose an infected growth due to anal fissure. Don't get any funny ideas! It is not caused by sex. I will keep the information to myself unless you ask me ... personally.

After clearing my bowels, more than 10 times in the toilet, I fell asleep and woke up right in the middle of the morning, feeling hungry. I literally had nothing down my throat, except for the Salmon at Curve and 4 pieces of Oreo for dinner. Why can't they just cut open me, slice that damn thing off? I didn't even had a bite of my own birthday cake! Argh!

Anyway, I would like thank everyone for coming to Italiannies! Like Jimmy said, it was fun to have two great meals with a bunch of friends in a month. Here are the pictures. I apologize if some of them are quite blur. As you all know, the Nikon D80 DSLR is still very new to me.

Kenny

The girls and me (l-r); Azie, Janet, Andrew, Claire, Jenny

The guys and me (l-r); Clement, Alvin, Colin, Andrew, Anthony

Jimmy, Edward

William, Dennis

Desert at Ikea

Ever so beautiful - Claire

The bunch at Ikea

Changing winds

2007-05-08T16:22:00.000+08:00

Hmm ... it seems that everyone has lost interest in blogging. Maybe timing is an issue, but the bottom line is hardly anyone update their blog. Well, just to let my loyal readers (the little few) know - I would be moving my blog to somewhere else soon. Once I get my DSLR, I want to share my photographs with all my readers. Due to that reason, I am searching for a platform that allows me to blog and upload images with user friendly "album" and "gallery" features. Blogspot doesn't provide that! How sad. So keep in touch ~~~ I might still input a few words to keep the blog alive.

Wish me luck.

The photography quest ...

2007-04-21T10:03:00.000+08:00

Nikon? Canon? D40? The new D40X? Expensive? No? Which is better? Canon! Which is clearer? Nikon. Rebel 350D? I prefer the Rebel 400D! Rebel's lenses are shitty! Nikon lenses are better! But Nikon has manual focus! Canon has more reliable lenses? No? Yes! Other brands? Nah ~ Shitty. Price? Similiar ... Focals? Aperture? Speed? Best recommended lens : EF 24-70, f2.8 = but it is 3 months my salary! Cheaper ones = not recommended. Sigma? Awaiting news? Erm ... 1500RM ok kua? Can right? Awaiting answer ... Humidity counts? Humidity matters? A country like Malaysia how? No difference? Got! Got meh? Not sure ... -_-"' Using for? Potrait? Landscape? Potrait and landscape? Macro! I like macro shots. Lighting? Dark lighting needs smaller f.28. Borrow lighting lo! Here is where I thank Eva! Muax# love you babe. But f2.8 is safest to get. If substitute with add-on flash? Add on cash! Huh? Total calculation for Camera =

*press calculator

2500
1500
1000

5000

with crumpler bag ...
5500

Sigh* Expensive hobby ... and this is only the beginning

Ask yourself ...

2007-04-09T11:19:00.001+08:00

When was the last time you spend some time looking at the sky?

or sat and listen to the sound of wave hitting the beach?

or count the stars?

or said something nice to your neighbor?

or did some gardening?

or plan some adventurous activities with your close friends?

or treat your family to a proper dinner?

or visited some charity organizations?

or helped an elderly in need?

or took a stroll down a botanical garden?

or even went to the theater?

As a working-Malaysian, one is usually not entitled to such privilege lifestyle because there is no time for such minor, not important and ignorable events. I find that an excuse. An excuse that should be proven false. Prove me wrong

Truly Amazing

2007-04-05T08:15:00.000+08:00

It's amazing! I log onto my stat counter and realize that there are still people reading my blog! AMAZING!

I have to say that the numbers had drop to a close 70% but I suppose I am not the only one. If you take 15min to explore the blogger tabs on the right, you will realize that even the most frequent blogger has ... erm ... halt in blogging.

Why?

My only guess - The government or rather hypocritical organizations are suing bloggers. But I truly believe, that is not the reason. Everyone just got busy ... with life.

I wonder does Kennysia and XiaXue still blogs as often?

Soon ... No one will be blogging. Another ICQ case

Andrewkin Lifestyle Challenge

2007-04-04T08:22:00.000+08:00

What do you think your name means?
Mum used to tell me that it is a hurricane name - just like me, Unpredictable and mischievous

When you were a kid, who do you want to be?
Lion-O from Thundercats

Which is your favorite radio station?
LiteFM

One thing people always mistaken about you
My age

One thing people always find amusing about you
My age

What is your best attributes?
My spontaneous jokes

One person you would love to meet
Christina Aguilera

Tell us a dirty secret about you
I love collecting business-working shirts ... Nice ones ~

Something you wish you had
Talent in singing

What CD is currently spinning in your player
Frank Sinatra – Movie Themes

One person you wish you could kill
Samy V

One person you wish you could revive from the death
Princess Diana

In one word, describe yourself
Complex

In two words, describe your life
Really weird

Which is your favorite football team?
You can’t be serious!

Favourite movie?
Forrest Gump

Song currently playing in your head, why?
Fire – Babyface & Desire. Because I just heard it over the radio

What is your best physical asset?
I have one???

What is your dream car?
Honda Jazz

One thing you find funny in life
Man, woman, god, money, friends … wait … that is more than one.

Your motto in life
Live life with burning passion

Which song made you cry?
Paris Hilton’s Stars are blind

If you are only granted one wish, what would you wish for?
World Peace *Does the Miss Universe Wave and Smile

Sleeping

2007-03-29T19:21:00.000+08:00

I slept from 6am - 6pm. Twelve hours of sleep. I took advantage of the environment, the everlasting rain. It was a conducive environment to promote deep sleep. That said, I really enjoy myself by dozing off and just relax. In a way, it prepares me to perform at work during the night-owl shift. Of course, the rain is a blessing for me ... but also a curse for residents at lowland. Hopefully tomorrow's newspaper would not have severe report about major floods.

Previously, Sky told me that something must have been disrupting my sleep, resulting me feeling tired when I work out at gym. It is either that or my cardio level has dropped. I notice that he is right. Often when I am sleeping in the day, my closed eyes will hit the sun-reflection from my curtain and I will open up my eyes. But after 5 seconds, I am at lala-land again. Or a sudden phone ring from my house line, or the neighbor kids playing-screaming or even a simple clank-noise on the floor - will definitely wake me.

I am a fast-sleeper but not a deep-sleeper. I really need to learn how to deep-sleep. Any ideas?

Owe it to tell

2007-03-26T18:25:00.000+08:00

Close to one month since I blog. I think I would delete my blog soon. Am not too sure any of you guys here still reads it. Anyway just a brief update on my life this month

Working at Inmagine.com now from 11p-7am. Night shift, servicing accounts or clients from USA. So I sleep from 8am-3pm. Try not to call me during my sleeping hours ... unless its SOS
Got stitches a few days ago. Knocked my head on the cupboard. First time experiencing seeing blood flow from my head. Scary view
Been trying to juggle gym, working life and friends. I am sorry if I have not seen some of you for some time. I promise to make it up to you. Azyei especially ... Sorry dearie. Promise will treat you dinner soon kaysz

Either than that, I really do not know why I might wanna continue blog again. But till then, ... let's see how thing goes

New Tag available

2007-03-01T23:19:00.000+08:00

It's my third day at work. I enjoyed the training. Everyone is like a family. The environment is conducive, friendly, comfortable and laid-back, yet people are serious when there is work. Boss is a great guy! The VC (vice-president) which is his wife is an awesome lady. They make a lovely young and successful couple... Both are equally respected too. Everyone is a great, except my immediate superior, lets called him Senior. Senior always looked moody and unhappy. Not sure why but I suppose that is fate. Remember my internship?

So? What have I done so far?

Read up on company history and the industry
Studied the competitors and their products
Research work on our product
Navigation for company's working interface
Had my eyes tired during the read-up session about licensing agreement (different copies)
Setup for my mail, internal database and website account
Eat lunch, slowly putting on weight and hate enduring the morning jam to work!

I am working in the morning shift for at least 2 weeks, just to grasp the basic knowledge about the industry and the skills required for the job. By the way, it's an account servicing job that deals with marketing and sales. My division is for the USA market. Due to that reason, after my training, I would be working from 11pm to 7am. Odd working hours, but the pay is not too bad and I get my afternoon life free.

That aside, due to my agreement with the company, I am not suppose to blog about work. But, I can't be bothered. I am going to respect and oblige to my words, but I am still going to blog about work! I am going to use representations and metaphors to relate to office work instead. That answers the Boss, VP and Senior. By the way, there are a number of pretty gals and cute guys in my office. BONUS! haha

Soon, I will have abs beneath my eyes

Dream a lil Dream

2007-02-16T15:53:00.000+08:00

I remembered my dream last night. It felt real. I know it wasn't but I feel it.

After a few years working in Malaysia, I finally went back to Melbourne. I spend all my savings and got myself a visa, a one-way flight ticket and some cash to sustain myself there. I arrived and was greeted by someone I never met before. He had long hair, quite thin, clean look and plays the guitar for a living. He offered me a place to stay. He lives on 5th Floor in some kind of "poorly-looked" apartment with a mini cafe below the building, somewhere near Richmond. Somewhere quite rotten.

In his room, there is 2 single mattresses and one queen size. I took the single nearest to the window. His apartment has only one living room, where the three mattresses lies and a mini shower-cum-bathroom (think of First World Hotel) and no kitchen. Rotten neighbourhood but very well kept apartment. Decided to stay with him. I called him Josh (cos maybe he looked like Josh Groban)

I tried to get online. Reception was bad. Didn't want to spend my money on some Vietnam Cyber Cafe! Tried phone-mobile since Dad is still paying for it ...but I Couldn't contact anyone. Tried reaching for people I know there but the result was quite bad. Tried Vince. Thought he could let me bump at his place instead, but I couldn't reach him. Not even Brian. Couldn't get Lisa, Belinda, Chloe or even Karen. Everyone I know in Melbourne ... seem lost. I gave up on them. Gave up on friends. Decided to be independent.

When I looked out the window, I am very sure it is Melbourne ... there is a view from his apartment. But I am not sure why I left Malaysia in such a hurry. Fell asleep ... in my own dream ... Ironic

I searched for jobs. No one would hire. Everyone prefer their own "nationality" and "people". Prioritize were given according to Color of your skin, the tone you speak and then your nationality. I didn't get any job. Hang around at the cafe most of the time.

In the end, I landed myself a tram driver job ... Earned some cash. Over a period of time, the job got me more money. I send everything I have back home. To who? I am not too sure. Sticked to that job till I was old. Nothing else paid more. That job took care of everything. In return, I looked awful ... I looked like Crap=Shit.

???

What was that about?

Sunshine

2007-02-09T15:27:00.000+08:00

After so many days, I finally got to see some sunshine. The dark and black void has passed. There is definitely better days. And I can feel it coming! There is definitely support. I have my close friends to thank. You guys are the best, I would never had recuperate without you guys.

Move on. It's a cycle. and it applies to everything that you do!

By the way, I gotten myself a job! Haha ... Weird working hours, but Nett income. I guess it is not that bad. Moreover, I am going to be busy this year. It would be a tough time but I think I could manage it. What could go wrong? I've got a great companion to share my life burden with, I've got supportive friends who are always there to appreciate and love me and I've got myself a great, serious and fun-loving business partner!

First sincere smile in ages!

Those aside, the puppies next door are doing very well. They still love the drain. But they are bigger and easier to mange now! "Girl-girl" no longer feels intimidated by me. She is very good natured now, allows me to pat her on a while, feed her by hand and roam around her home without any complications. She even allows me to play with her pups. *Yahoo!

By the way, I've snapped a few pictures

Aren't they just adorable? I called them Blackie, Snow White and the other on, CowCow ... Hahaha. Of course, that is not their real name.

I suppose my sunshine is here, time to run, enjoy the scenery and breathe the fresh air!

Superman?

2007-01-25T16:34:00.001+08:00

I saved three puppies today. My neighbor's dog (my family call her girl-girl), gave birth to three puppies last week. The puppies are only 1 week old and have no abilities to crawl, bark or such. They only roll around the cold cement concrete to move about. That said, they do have the interest for the drains nearby. Unfortunately, this time, they were stuck in the dry drain again, under the hot sun and were making a whole lot of unpleasant cries for help. Previously, the puppies end up in a wet drain after the rain, but the girl-girl manage to get them out. This time, the mother was lost and left the puppies crying.

I had no choice. I can't stand there and see the puppies roast. Moreover, the puppies are already crawling into the rain hole near the wall. One way in, and no way out. Each puppies cramped through the opening and began suffocating. My heart broke. I had no choice but to fend off the angry mother with an umbrella and carefully pick each puppies from the drain without getting bitten.

Now they are calmly asleep under the shed in my house. Too bad my parents are passive towards dogs. They are not even thrilled by pedigree puppies ... apatah lagi mongrel.

I felt like a superman but I felt bad at the same time. What is going to happen to the puppies??? It is not the first time the puppies are mistreated and my neighbor has no ability to take care of the puppies. Girl-girl was cared by them out of pity. She is always chained, drink water out of a weed,algae-infested tub of water, live under a table and roam around where her shit lies stinking. My family feed her once a while with bones as the carer can't afford to feed her at times. Either than that, she is nothing but an ugly fierce unfriendly mongrel. How are the puppies going to grow up in such environment?

I called SPCA today for solutions. If they were to take the puppies away, they have no choice but to kill the puppies as there are already an increase in unwanted breeds and mongrel population. I understand but I can't help but still feel bad. Did I really "save" the puppies?

Am beginning to think that the puppies would hate me for saving them from committing suicide

Urg - Void

2007-01-19T01:36:00.000+08:00

I have not been writing. There are many reasons to it, but I am not keen on sharing. I suppose that part of me prefer to just keep things quiet. Weird huh?

*cough cough*

Believe it or not, for the past few days I really feel down. It’s like everything is wrong. Whatever I do, whatever I think – it’s all wrong. I am not too sure whether it is caused by the Maxis interview, the fact that I am growing up and I feel like a child, the ever gloomy-rainy weather, my friends, me-myself, health issues or even my family’s expectation. I am not sure. I know I feel so lost and empty. It’s like my life has suddenly turned into an empty void. A silent vacuum.

There are so many things running in my head right now and I feel like banging it on the wall. As the result, I ended up sleeping with a headache and waking up with one that is worse than the night before. Maybe I shouldn't think too much ...

I am not too sure what is happening to me. I need to rearrange my thoughts – maybe try to be a little more optimistic and cheerful. Thanks Kenny for accompanying me in the arcade today!

*A HURK ... "*!@$^&!
Gosh – my cough is tearing my body apart

Same Script Different Cast - Whitney Houston

2007-01-12T14:45:00.000+08:00

I've got a job interview from Maxis on tuesday! I hope everything goes well for me ... Am not too sure whether they are hiring, but nevertheless - I am going to do my best to impress them.

Thanks Bart for the interview advice .

Wish me luck!

Stan Getz - O Grande Amor

2007-01-08T00:47:00.000+08:00

Cheers, Toasts.
The New year arrived. Christmas celebrated. Journey into the 4th Year.
New resolutions? Too hard to maintain. But I do have some just for the sake of motivation.

Stepping into the working world.
Nervous? Abit ...
Support? Alot ...
Interviews? None yet ...

BA Arts (Media and Communication)
Getting anywhere with it? Too soon to tell ... hopefully somewhere
Maybe a little regretful ... but there are more pros than cons.
So ... ?

I am not sure

Facelift for the blog? Soon, but I think it would only be for the header ... since I have plenty of time.

Wish I grow more flesh this year.

Fashion Staples for Men

2006-12-27T01:44:00.001+08:00

Three Piece Suit
Jeans
Leather band watch
Polo shirt
Leather belt
White Dress Shirt
White T-Shirt
Sneakers
Silk Ties
Black Socks
Black Dress Shoe
Brown Dress Shoe
Black Dress Shirt
Trench Coat
Scarf
Sunglasses
Cashmere Sweater
Cuff Links
Steel Band Watch
Leather Gloves
Pea Coat

I suppose in a humid and hot Malaysia weather, we do not really need certain stuff from the above list. But I personally think it is essential to have them. You never know when you might just get a chance to travel to London or anywhere else with winter season! Anyway, that's not the point. There is a reason why GQ and Askmen suggest the staples. Go figure! Let's see how many of those items I have.

*andrewkin inspects his wardrobe and begin slashing items that he have

~~Three Piece Suit~~
~~Jeans~~
~~Leather band watch~~
~~Polo shirt~~
~~Leather belt~~
White Dress Shirt
~~White T-Shirt~~
~~Sneakers~~
~~Silk Ties~~
~~Black Socks~~
~~Black Dress Shoe~~
~~Brown Dress Shoe~~
~~Black Dress Shirt~~
Trench Coat
~~Scarf~~
Sunglasses
Cashmere Sweater
Cuff Links
Steel Band Watch
Leather Gloves
Pea Coat

Not too bad eh ... 8 items left. Well, I don't think I really need a trench coat or leather gloves.

Selina's wedding

2006-12-17T15:55:00.000+08:00

Attended Selina's wedding last night. The wedding was well planned, the food were good and the crowd is supportive and cheerful (even during the "yam seng" ceremony!). Something I hardly experienced in weddings. What to do? Most family members are traditional Chinese-type, where weddings are usually held at restaurants instead of hotels. Anyway seeing Alvin, Janet and Kenny getting drunk last night was a whole lot of fun. Overall, the dinner was enjoyable. I am so happy for Selina and Yean. They looked very happy together and I wish them the best of luck in everything they are about to endure in the future. Seeing them being strong for each other really got me thinking how special a relationship can be and ... can get. I suppose they are right with the saying that "it is not easy to find that special someone. So when you do, appreciate them". That said, those out there who have that special someone - never give up on each other if there is still love and for those who are enduring singlehood - never give up on love.

Best wishes guys

SSA - Skinny Sickness Anonymous

2006-12-04T11:54:00.001+08:00

Hi. I am Frustrated A. I have a problem. I am thin and skinny and I cannot put on weight. I do go to the gym and workout. Maybe I am doing the wrong routines but I am very sure I tried building muscles. My arms are small and it looks awful. Think of snowman with tree branches as arms. Not that it is a huge problem but my friends say I should put on weight. I do eat alot and maintain a healthy diet but my weight stays at 65kg. I am not entirely underweight but I think increasing my body mass is somewhat better. Any suggestions either than eating more? Cos I can't afford to drink Eno everytime I try to double my meal!

Dead Blog?

2006-11-27T16:52:00.000+08:00

G : Why haven't you been blogging ya?
A : Ha? No reasons la ...
G : What happened?
A : You mean to my blog? Or to me?
G : Your blog la!
A : Nothing la! Just don't feel like writing

G : Ok ...
A : Good also ma, become PMS Blog.

G : What are you talking about?

A : You know, you girls PMS once a month right? So I blog

only once a month lo!
G : Ha? You didn't change abit!
A : Hello? Nine months away only ler ... I am still quite Malaysian k!
G : Yah la tu~

BTW , I am back ...

The member issue

2006-11-02T08:30:00.000+08:00

One of the things I will miss is NJ and GL's interesting conversations. One of them happened last night; when we were chatting about how men are proud of their member. It was quite interesting because I remember when my bunch of boy friends and I were young (primary school), we talked about how to get a hard-on. Yeah, I know ... but we were young! Moreover, when you enter puberty, interesting things happen (ie; asking friends questions!). We shared thoughts about our member and mostly, it directs to ways to get it up. Most of them imagine the group Spice Girls when they try to get a hard-on. Funny how pop music could be more than just music. and that leads to yesterday's conversation;

GL : Boys a! Nothing else to do with their member a? So dumb!
NJ : Serious! You cannot insult their member
GL : Yah meh?
NJ : When they are young, they are fasinated by it
AK : Which is quite true!
NJ : and when they are old, they are proud of it!
GL : Got meh?
AK : I am not proud of my member!
NJ : Your case differently la!
AK : o_O
GL : So cannot insult their member la?
NJ : Of course cannot! If you do - they go limp one!
AK : That I have to agree!
NJ : I had sex once, and I say la, Harder! Faster! Stronger!
GL : A huh?
NJ : and he got ... erm ... it's like big banana to ... tofu!
AK & GL : LOL
NJ : I was shock! He was angry but I still want my sex!
AK : I so do not need to know that
NJ : and he was out of the mood
GL : This is so funny
NJ : Then he ask me why I say such things, I had to lie!
AK : What did you tell him?
NJ : I said those things because Hollywood movies say it.
AK & GL : LOL

Moral of the story; never insult a guy's member in anyway during sex

Up at 5am

2006-10-30T01:57:00.000+08:00

I think I am still alive - pretty much like a zombie! Had watch sunrise for 3 consecutively days. It's beautiful I tell you! The sky just splits into three colours; dark blue, bright blue and a yellow base line. Don't be mistaken, I did not stay up for the sunrise. I had no choice but to study. Can't sleep anyway. By the way, daylight saving started. Lost an hour and am going to have longer day, in terms of light and shorter night. The sun only start setting at 8pm and comes out at 5. Quite cool, but it feels like you have more things to do in the afternoon.

Exam is just around the corner - two days away. I am only half prepared. Can't wait for it to be over. After that, my uni days are over. Fast eh? Soon I will be returning to the land where the haze comes every year. I am not glad that I had to return to Malaysia so soon, but I do anticipate for the day I pack up, board the plane and meet my friends at mamak again. Those were the days. But I better not expect so much, since Jen told me that things changed since I was away. Sadly, it was not changes for the better ... but nevertheless, I hope my friends are healthy and happy for my return! Hahaha, definetely have to make everyone buy me a welcome back mamak drink!

I wonder, does my friends back there still remember me? I hope so ... afterall, 10months is not that long ...

Echoes in a Falling Leaf

2006-10-27T00:10:00.000+08:00

My voice echoes,
No matter how many leaves I saw falling,
I felt the warmth of a new life.

A perfect day?
Never a perfect person.

So help me echo my voice, my presence and my strength,
Because I felt the stranger in you.
It's not my will to feel the blankness,
It was not my intention to stay in it,
It is the leaf I saw falling.

Warmth new life?
That is not perfect.
New scars will come ... and the leaves will fall again .
But I am glad it fell.

Help me echo my voice, my song and my heart beat,
Because I felt the warmth, the new scars and the perfect person,
It was not the new life I felt,
It was the leaf ... ever falling

他的脚印

2006-10-17T23:18:00.000+08:00

为何你留下的脚印如此刻骨铭心
我明白，我了解
有你陪伴的回忆
那是我一生的最感动，最欢乐，最珍贵，不能再拥有过的
希望，那边的你，也一样

The 10 Hour Room

2006-10-02T01:50:00.000+08:00

Ah!

I've been so busy this past few weeks, I didnt even realized it was October already. I suppose that is the effect when you get stuck in the editing suite for 10hours a day. Ok, I am over-dramatizing but spending the entire weekend in room P2.21 wasn't exactly the weekend I anticipated. Moreover, I spend last weekend shooting for Medha (my art"sie" short film for ACT206 unit) and the previous weekend finishing a major essay for ASC287 and the previous weekend, another assignment. There, a month without proper weekend! Who said that studying life were more fun than working life?

Thank goodness, 大姐 hooked me up on a tulip trip with her friends. Hehe, I can't wait to see the crazy wacko girls. Miss them! By that I meant, CL and 小Wei. Two crazeeeee woman! If you guys think I am hyper ... wait till you see us three in axion! We are like the herioc trio, the charlie angels, the DOA girls! But I wonder what the hell am I going to do during the tulip trip. No doubt we would be looking at tulips!!! Like *DUH! But is that all we are going to do for the entire Sunday ????? I ain't want to just look at tulips!

I could pack a picnic-lunch basket ... but that's not even during the trip. It's like before the darn thing. Of course, I can always hope there are cute hunks and gorgeous babes (ala Gisele type) at the tulip field! At least then, I can work on my eye's six pack, which have been suffering because of the non-stop 10hour daily editing since last week! Sigh* what staring at the computer screen can do to your eyes!

What else to do during the trip leh???

...

Ha!

I could get some tulips and put it in the house! I mean, our house is like so dead (thanks to our landlord who keeps on killing the greens, weeds and whatever not around the yard) - and since we borrowed a vase for Medha's production, we kinda got flowers sitting around the living room since last week! Yeap ... tulips for the living room ...

What a gay thing to do!

But what the heck

Hahaha*

I LOVE TODAY!

2006-09-24T22:04:00.000+08:00

Post is actually for sunday

Had my first music festival celebration today - The Darwin Music Festival at Northcote. Actually, I was filling in for Eva (since she had other matters to attend to) as a crew membe for shooting Greg Walsh (a local old time songwriter-singer). BTW, it's for a documentary assignment. Greg, also a friends of ours, was one of the five finalist for the song-writing competition. So, the girls was just adding materials for their documentary. Anyway, the festival was awesome - shops were all open on sunday, selling heaps and heaps of food, people brought their kids, dogs and lovers but the weather was the give-away (it rained)... Why don't we have something like that in Malaysia??? So ... back to the festival, the competition was fun. Every contestant gave their best performance. Sadly, Greg didn't win but he was complimented for his "1920s" jazz style and unique voice. So ... I shall shut-up and let the pics tell the enjoyable moments at the festival ...

Greg Walsh and me @ the street

Grace and me!

My 4dollar lunch. Am not sure what is it called but it taste very different and quite filling.

People still having fun despite the weather

Greg giving his best shot for the competition

One of the finalist ... His song is really funny - it is called, Short People are Sexy. LOL

The winners for the competition

Ok ... after a whole lots of fun. Grace treat me to a Korean food (which I have anticipated for a very very long time!). We went to this place called Seoul House between Lonsdale St and Russell St. It was recommended by ALST. Thank you ALST so so so so much. The service was top notch! Polite, friendly and very very helpful. I love that place. PICS PICS PICS!

The korean version of Okonomiyaki. My most favourite! *yum yum yum

Me eating Okonomiyaki

The Korean BBQ setup

Chili BBQ pork - VERY YUMMY!

KIMCHI!!!! *nyam nyam nyam

HotPot Seafood - nothing special.

The very authentic - Rice Green Tea! Yummy!

Thank you grace! Hmmm ... I think I am going back that place again quite soon or maybe I should extend my masters program to Korea! Haha, since I love the food so so much. BTW, did I mentioned about their steel bowl and long spoon. LOVE IT! I tell you, I WILL have that Korean set cutleries next time in my home! WILL HAVE'em!!! I am so hungry now thinking of the dinner. Thank gawd I bought a bucket of Kimchi. Ok ... That's enough for today. Going to eat my kimchi now ... hehehe

A hungry man is an angry man

2006-09-17T11:47:00.000+08:00

CL told me that 'a hungry man is an angry man' and that's so true! I am grumpy and pathetic when I am hungry. I don't know about other guys ... but I practically have "PMS" when I am deprived from food. Thus, fasting has never-EVER worked for me! Tried once a few years back when I was working with Padini. Joined my malay colleagues for the fasting period where I only lasted for 6hours ... or is it two? LOL ... with breakfast ~

Food is essential ... every 4-5 hours for me. Sadly, by the amount of food I am eating, I am still skinny. Unfair ... but trust me, I prefer to grow a lil more. I know very well by tomorrow, I would be that hungry and angry man CL is talking about. Main reason? The fridge has no greens, the cupboards are empty with cook-able can food and with that - I am down with ingredients to cook a proper dinner and lunch for today, tomorrow and most likely the day after tomorrow. I can't actually drive out to buy because I ain't got a car and there is NO public transport to the nearest market on a Sunday! Consequences of living in a suburb! The 2nd nearest is closed! Safeway and Coles seem to be the only available options but usually you don't get fresh groceries from there AND I do need to hand in an assignment tomorrow, which I have only completed 20% of it

$&!@_!@*!&a^p;@!^!@!45!##*^&*($@^!&#;!;@!^!~@5!##*^&*($@^!&#

Advices? Buy tomorrow? I have class till 5pm. Then, everything is closed. Buy on Tuesday? I still have class till 5pm and by then, everything is CLOSED. Eat outside??? Am beginning to think that is the only options. Take-Away? In those plastic containers and the cold weather at night ... I might as well just cook porridge and eat it with soy sauce! Sigh* I think I only got myself to blame - improper planning for groceries shopping. So, there you go ... soon to be hungry and angry boy. If you see a guy in his new Birkenstock sandals, running around burwood with a butcher knive ... that would be me.

I bet in Malaysia, no one have that problem. Cheap food EVERYWHERE and even if all the hawker stores, mamak, food courts and restaurants are all closed, you can always count on your best mate to cook. Hehe ... right Jenny ??? :P

PS ... It's getting hot ~beginning to feel the burning light from the sun. Hitting 26degree soon. Malaysia ! I am so prepared!!!

It's about the sleeping

2006-09-10T12:21:00.000+08:00

After 10hours of sleep and a whole lot of mess with ALC314 Advertising unit last night, I wake up feeling just a little better. No headache or what so ever but only a backpain. That reminds me of my bed back in Subang. Sigh* Miss that mattress! Good support and tough, compared to the beds here - soft till the extend you could feel the spring with your back. Now that explains the backpain!

When Alvin talks about being picky with his pillow, I so totally agree with him. I mean, picking a pillow is like picking the partner you hug to sleep at night! The pillow ought to be not too hard nor too soft for me. The pillow got to have that softness where I would just doze off as soon as I put my head on it. And of course, the pillow gotta be "smell-free" regardless of it's material. Some has that kinda feel that it smells ... urgh ....

Then we have the mattress! I love my mattress (the one back in Malaysia) and I so totally agree that the higher the price - the better it is. LIKE DUH! Go for a good brand and look for a particular attribute. What do you want from your mattress? Extra support, good padding? Tough cookie? Soft? Something you can hump and pump on? and FYI, size does matter! If you have a partner that loves to sleep over - dump that single and get a queen. If you have a partner that loves to do martial art when he sleeps over - dump the queen, get a king! If you like to feel you partner and hug him closely to sleep, a supersingle would be just nice ...

Another thing important thing about sleeping is the hair! I don't know about you guys, but long hair keeps me awake. I fell the heat behind my head. Am still wondering how girls sleep. BTW, got a new hair cut last friday. Man ... I love the new hair. For 20 dollars at Sui, it is so worth the money. I think this is my hair. You know - THE hair that suits me. hahaha

Lastly, the decor is very important when you sleep. I can't sleep in a room where everything is disoriented and messy. Of course, I think many who knows my sleeping "style" - disagree with that! hahaha. Anyway - the color white and earthy color makes me feel more comfortable. I think it applies to most people. Give me a raise of hand, people those who can sleeps in bright-shocking red walls?........ Jimmy raises hand.....

Make sure everything is fengshui directed too. No sharp "blades" disturbing your chi when you sleep. No mirror reflection. No computers or mechanism that is on. No legs facing directly at the door. No sleeping head first to the bathroom door. If you ain't sure ... go grab Lilian Too's book or borrow one from Kenny. Hehehehe.

and of course, a glass of water right beside me ...

Untitled Post

2006-09-08T02:16:00.000+08:00

Everyone is asleep in the living room. Its past 4am and I got to wake up about 930am. Why am I still not asleep yet? Don't ask me! Have an appointment at 11am and because I need to travel using the public transport, I gotta leave the house early. I am so gonna look like a zombie tomorrow.

Well, not most of us get the things we want anyway. So, just make the best out of it even if you are deeply sad, dissapointed and in many ways - hoping it will get better (but you know it wont).

Problem with staying up late alone is that you always feel lonely, hallucinate, feel hungry and lazy to cook ... and feel more lonely afterthat ... and you can't sleep. Then, you will think what is wrong with you and you start listing the negative stuff about yourself and feel all helpless. After that, you feel emotionally drained, tired and sleep with the thought that you are nothing but a loser. I am not implying that everyone feels that way ... but I do ... mostly - for no reasons (of course there is!) but I am not sure how to spill it out in words.

Sigh* This shucks

Andrewkin grabs his Baileys

Bai Ling - VIRGIN ???

2006-09-03T22:07:00.000+08:00

The music industry is definetely in chaos. First, we have the diva-turned-tribal aborigine wannabe Beyonce. Then we have Paris, our 20thcentury miss-SONOT-Munroe wannabe. Now, we have BAI LING - virgin wannabe!!!!!

I so rike Bai Ling. Se's rike the transattler or something. Se's so ecentric. Se's so kuul. Se's rike the DIVAS! Se's rike my father's nippy or something! Se's everything! (FYI, spelling errors are intentional - think BLONDE) *andrewkin does the Paris Hilton smile.

We should have a new genre rather than categorizing everything into pop. I believe the new genre should be called ... erm ... trash. You figure out what kind of music we can put in there! If Bai Ling gets a contract for an album launch, I am fasting from music.

The CAPS

2006-09-02T19:29:00.000+08:00

Buy-bye winter and welcome Spring. I hardly (almost-never) sweat for the past 6months. The weather has always been comfortable and complimenting. Now, it's all gone! The temperature hardly hits 23degree and I am already sweating ... profusely ... CAN YOU IMAGINE ME BACK IN MALAYSIA ???

I actually hope that Spring would do me good, prepare me for Malaysia. I hate the weather back there. HOT HOT HOT. Even when it rains, it is still HOT! The people there are also HOT-cum-ANGRY-STRESSFUL-PEOPLE and it's not like there are any HAWT hunks around ( look at our Cleo's candidate"sSssss" for gawd sake~!!!!)

Hmmm ... Maybe I should stop complaining. It's awesome, I think I actually said that line a couple of times previously in my blog. I should complain ... afterall, I am Malaysian! CHINESE-MALAYSIAN!

Ok ... the anticipation of going back to a country's weather I hate is definetely doing me alot of harm. Maybe I should think positive ... I get to wear less cloth and bear more skin! (But my skin is filled with hairs, and it is a big NO NO) ... Sandals! I get to wear sandals! MORE reasons to have a collection of sandals!!! (Ok, one point for Malaysia) ... but no more leather-boots or winter shoes (minus one for malaysia) ... Maybe I'll get tan ... Is it still like the "trend-tinge" where people prefer tan boys??? ... Hmmm ... Swimming! Haven't swam for ages! Reasons to get NEW TRUNK ... YahooWEE! ... I can also have a good reason to invest on an expensive and useful sunnies ... Hehe ... Why everything revolves around shopping eh??? ... Nevermind! Nevermind! ... What else? What else? ...

THINK POSITIVE ANDREW! THINK POSITIVE!

...

ARGH ... I want LAYERING !#%&!*@%#*&@*@(#(!(!!!**#(@*!@&!%@*!%!!

Happy Merdeka ...

2006-08-31T19:23:00.000+08:00

Since that most of my readers are from Malaysia ... Happy Merdeka everyone!

Would love to share my most favourite Merdeka Advert with you guys. Hope you enjoyed it as much as I do ...

and also ... this one too :P

Vampire Look

2006-08-29T22:33:00.000+08:00

I've just finish watching Underworld Evolution with Grace. I know I am so..ooooo outdated, but hey, better late than never! Anyway, it was not a bad movie. Werewolves battling vampires, tearing each other apart, and bloods spattering everywhere … gore but compared to Van Helsing – UE is way much better! Moreover, werewolves there were mostly nude! Of course, I am talking about the ‘human’ form of it … want their abs! Don’t mind being one if I have their abs!

It’s quite interesting how Eva said Vampire has a kind of look (sleek, sharp, cool and ‘blood-sucky’ type) and Werewolves has another look (macho, rough, huge and “cowboy” look). Of course, we are talking in terms of the human portrayal (minus the CG) in pop media and Hollywood!

Eva told me that I somehow have that Vampire look. NOT THE VAMPIRE LOOK, but close to one. I suppose she meant, I look like some lean bloodsucking creature that has sharp facial features, demonical stares, sleeps upside down (except that I am always upside down anyway) and cannot see the “light” due to multiple various I-bet-you-know-what reasons!

You can suck muahs blood anytime!

Come to think of it, I totally don’t mind. I think would be the Asian-China-Beng type. HAHAHA. I must be drunk! Not the zombie-vampire, “keong see” but a Western-China-Beng one. You get what I mean right??? To be frank, I don’t mind being a vampire – you get nice-cool outfits, lives in big huge mansion, immortal, hates the sun (now that’s a natural), possess awesome kungfu while looking graceful and sensual drinking off a goblet and most vampires do look rather cool and mysterious and you KICK ASS! Though, biting someone on the neck seems a’lil unglamorous …

Of course, if I am a vampire, it would be a HUGE disgrace to the clan, tribe or whatever you call’em! I would be the one that stands out from them. Asian and Fukgly. Who knows, they might just throw me out in the sun and I bet if a Werewolf sees me – he will turn straight into a stone. Of course, then that will make me Medusa. Now THAT I don’t mind!

Am I ???

2006-08-27T21:19:00.000+08:00

DO YOU MAKE A HOT IMPRESSION ???

Hot-Impression Pro

You're a master at making a sizzling impact without leaving skid marks. "You're able to enter a situation, whether it's a job interview or a first date, and come away with people wanting to know more about you, and that's what makes you so magnetic," says Leil Lowndes, author of How to Be a People Magnet.

Another wow-worthy trait you possess: intuition. "You know how to pick up on other people's cues so your moves are appropriate to the situation," says Debra Rosenzweig, Ph.D., a clinical psychologist in New York City. For example, you'll be daring enough to toss out a naughty joke to a new group of girls at a bridal shower or compliment a random stud's iPod picks to warm him up to you, but if you hit dead air during an interview, you won't fall back on the same sexy tactics. Instead, you'll cleverly spark your interviewer's interest by lobbing him a question that gets him talking about himself (most people's fave subject). Bottom line: You know that creating a fab first connection means showing interest in others, then pulling back juuuust enough to get them intrigued.

Hmmmm ....

Who at fault?

2006-08-26T23:10:00.000+08:00

I think most of you guys and girls back in Malaysia read about the MAS, AirAsia and Transport Minister bakering each other on some tiny issues (where our DPM obviously couldn't care less!!!). If you haven't and want details, do a search on StarOnline. I'll do everyone a favor and summarize.

MAS, AirAsia and Transport Minister tries and resolve frequent air delayed issues, but found no solution what-so-ever. DPM finds it childish so this happened ...

Saturday August 26, 2006

PUTRAJAYA: A massive traffic jam downtown resulted in Transport Minister Datuk Seri Chan Kong Choy having to call off a scheduled meeting with representatives from the country’s two major airlines Malaysia Airlines (MAS) and AirAsia.

According to an aide, the minister had been caught in a traffic jam in Kuala Lumpur for around an hour.

“The meeting was fixed for 5pm but has to be postponed to a later date, which has yet to be fixed,” he said when contacted here yesterday.

On Thursday, MAS managing director and CEO Idris Jala had indicated that he wanted to meet with Chan after the minister expressed his unhappiness over the mounting number of passenger complaints about flight delays.

...

BODOH GILA!!! and definetely the most hillarious news I read so far ... I hope this incident shine some light onto SamyVellu on his brilliant road works. Soon, we will see more of such news - PM calls off Summit due to traffic, DPM calls of national security meeting due to bad traffic, Delayed meeting with visiting minister from countries due to traffic, Late comers for world conference due traffic and Samy Vellu died on his way to hospital due to bad traffic congestion

I love the roads in Malaysia. Can't wait to get back and have a feel for it!!!!!

Beyonce on EVAogue

2006-08-20T10:31:00.000+08:00

This is extracted from EVAogue. Beyonce talks about her latest album with reporter-cum-fashion analyst-cum-mediastudent-cum-cum-cum andrewkin.

AK
Yo girl, long time no see! Congratulation on your latest album, Bday and the phenomenal video clip!

B
Hey andrew! Thanks so much. It's nice to see you again after that Lets Skin'em Fur Fashion Show at Milan.

AK
So you found anything you like?

B
Everything! I love the polar bears, the panda bears, the fox bears, bears and bears and more bears and anything with fur on it!

AK
*Phew, guess I am not your type since I have more hair than fur. Anyway, What is the inspiration for your latest album?

B
My antelope name tribal and my poodle, ecstasy.

AK
Oh, that explains the hair-do and the out of control dance. You must have lost your breath there.

B
The dance was exhilarating. It was kinda fun to lose control and be crazy in love with this new song.

AK
So did Jay-Z inspire you too for this new album?

B
Yeah, his my soldier!

AK
But the dance you had with him in the video stirs up alot of comments. How did you guys feel when you did the dance?

B
It was sensual, sexual and sort of DeJavu

AK
*Thinks of SeanPaul and the Babyboy thinge

B
Jay-Z was himself in the video clip ...

AK
... Ignoring you?

B
Oh no! We do that quite often. We ain't want to give our fans an impression that we are the next Whitney Houston-Bobby Brown kinda thinge. No offence to Whitney. She is still the diva and I luv ya!

AK
So let's talk about your new style. As I can see from your new cover and video clip, you have this new hairdo that is totally "inspiring". Did you get that from somewhere too?

B
Yeah! There is this one time, Jay and I were walking at the park and he said "Girl, that looks like a bee hive, I wonder how would you look like if that thing falls onto your head". So I asked my makeup artist and hair stylist to picture and aesthetically design my new image according to what Jay said. After all, I ain't want people focusing too much on my bootylicious butt.

AK
I am a lil lost, but I got that down. Let's move on and get back into the discussion about the video clip. There were some controversies and fans were not happy. I heard, they even proposed a petition to remake the video. What do you think about that?

B
I am an independent woman. I make decisions based on my emotions. Even the dance was me just loading it off. The director had no objection to it although the editors were having a tough time, but they pulled through. One of them did end up at the asylum. But I swear it wasn't me!

AK
I am lost again, but hey girl - Your one survivor!

B
NOW! Say my name! *Laugh

AK
BEYONCE?

B
*Jumpin jumpin! WHoa! I felt like I am with Oprah!

AK
HUH?... Are you alright?

B
Yeah, just a lil dangerously in love with your interview!

AK
!@$*!@$!@#!%!@%#!&(%&$?$^^$@@. OoooooooK! Let's wrap it up. I did a lil impersonation of your album. What do you think of it? *handing over Beyonce a piece of paper;

B
...

我很想你

2006-08-16T12:41:00.000+08:00

我很想你　你知道吗
如果可以　就让我再见你
美好微笑　清澈眼睛
好确定那场分离只毁了我一个而已

我很想你　听见了吗
这是唯一　我无解的困境
那些过去　不肯过去
不管我后来遇见多少人
只能叹息　都不是你

The boring updates

2006-08-10T22:52:00.000+08:00

Firstly, I would love to congratulate Jimmy on his new place! I suppose, now he is officially "jia chu xi"! MUAHAHAHAHA .... Love you bro and dear catwalk; wait for me!

I think I am bored of Melbourne. I can't believe I am saying this! Life have been so busy lately that I actually felt the routine and loneliness. Usual, miss my friends. What else is new eh!?!?!? Thank goodness Eva and Grace is around. I bet if they weren't, I might have taken drugs to keep myself sane.

Last week was hell. Work, school work, shooting, production, editing and life! Keep it short and sweet, it was a tough week but still had a great suprise birthday dinner from the girls. Yeap, I am officially twenty-one since last week. Need to hunt for a key now ... hehehe *and I just know the right place to find one!

Grace also has been driving lately. We were able to borrow her friend's car for a day or two. Thus, we just drove around (usually for work) and groceries. FYI, I am doing a walker job. Spend two days walking around a neighbourhood delivering promotional materials and newspaper. The car comes as a storage mobility! Good cheap exercise but not much a pay. I rather get lower pay rates than confront with pathetic cheapo useless bosses! BTW, I took legal action on my previous boss. A free law service provided by Monash *Cheers to that! Why don't we ever get something like that in Malaysia eh???

Either than that, this belated birthday boy has decided to stay in for the weekend, read and save some cash for shopping soon. Maybe I will post up some pictures from my birthday. I will think about it.

Happy Ghost Festival Month everyone!

Still Alive

2006-08-05T11:50:00.000+08:00

Sorry for not updating my blog. Busy week. Alot to do, very little time and easily get distracted. Just to drop by and let you ya'oll know I am still pretty much alive. Help me out with some research stuff would ya? Love to know your opinions ...

Do you think you are romatic? Is it true that romance courtship only last for the first few months of a relationship? Are they any rare cases where romance still lives on after years? How would you define a romatic relationship???

Indians 2

2006-07-30T01:55:00.000+08:00

Please read the post before this one first ...

They are still yapping away. Just additional information; One of them actually fought with a girl ...wanting sex! It was quite funny and hillarious. I bet all the awful music and drinks got up the guy's head. The host had to actually calm the situation and tell the rest of the crowd to remain cool and calm. They crowd laughs and cheer the guy on. Guy drag the Girl in the house and I have no idea what they will do (Ain't interested in the Nehi Yesi Sex thinge). WHATS WITH INDIAN GUYS violently wanting sex???? Don't get em but I am sure ... the steel bar is beginning to bend ...

How I know? COS THEY ARE FREAKING LOUD AND I CAN HEAR EVERY SINGLE WORD!

!@$&!@?$!*@+$!?%*!@%*!@%!@*#52^*!!#&amp;!#%&!@$

Indians

2006-07-30T01:32:00.000+08:00

WARNING
THIS CONTENT HAS VULGAR LANGUAGE AND RACIST REMARK

Case :
Indian Neighbour playing Loud music in the middle of night

Venue :
Ireland St

Description :
Indian dancing, singing, discoing from 7pm till 330am. Music as loud as Disco and Clubs. Definetely hired speakers and rented disco light ball. Bad awful music. Painful remixes from Bollywood and definetely too much noise for a quiet sub-urb. Too much dancing, stamping, cheering and laughing (not that its a crime, but it might be if I lose my temper)

Report made :
Andrew - 230am, Grace - 302am and 3 other reports

Some awful music remixes:
YMCA, Kuch Kuch Ho Ta E (i dont care how you spell it), La Bamba and a whole lot worse!

Remark:
DON'T YOU FREAKING FUCKING INDIANS HAVE BRAINS??? Music that loud could kill a dog! Do you have any heart at all??? Stupid freaking MUTHAFUCKA! Your music is so loud that when the police arrived and knocked profusely for 3 times, no one answered and the police guy had to actually CLIMB OVER TO THE BACKYARD and BANG ON THE WALL to get the FREAKING INDIAN FUCKED UP ARSE HOLE to the door. WHAT A FREAKING EMBARASSEMENT. When confronted, they even had the heart to ask the police "CAN WE LOWER DOWN THE MUSIC?" ... HOW STUPID CAN YOU GET! obviously they disallowed it and told them that another complain would land them a fine. I was cynically smiling away. After the police left ... THE NOISE CONTINUED ... without the music but with them CHATTING AND LAUGHING AWAY...

WHAT'S WITH INDIANS? I am not implying all of em ... BUT THIS BUNCH REALLY PLANT THEIR BRAINS ON THEIR TEMPLE! BRAINLESS HEARTLESS FREAKS. ANOTHER LOUD NOISE, I will personally land a huge rock right THROUGH THEIR WINDOW ... That will keep the noise down ... I will be sure of it

Report written by:
Andrewkin, WHO IS ANGRILY HOLDING ONTO A STEEL BAR, PRAYING TO GOD FOR MORE PATIENCE AND INNER PEACE TO NOT HURT ANYONE

Choco-me!

2006-07-23T22:23:00.000+08:00

I love chocolates. When Sasha said she hated it. I declared her; not human. It's a lovely sunday afternoon, except that it rained and I couldn't find my Oxford shirt! ERGH@!/#@1p@##$%21!!! Of course, things got much better when the girls and I end up at Max Benners Chocolatarie, also known as Chocolate by the Bald men. Except there weren't any balds there but I do recall a VERY cute guy, around the corner. Come to think of it, there are alot of cute guys who goes there, frequently!

Anyway, I need to show you the pics! I can'e help it!!! Afterall, it is chocolates and I am very sure, it will do no harm. Let me introduce the sinful drinks and deserts ...

Italian Chocolate & Dark Chocolate Truffle

Max Benners Special Milk Chocolate - do it yourself - drink (comes w 3 different chocs too)

Chocolate Brownies - could be better! SHOULD BE MORE CHOCOLATIE!

Chocolate Babka - what a funny name :P

One thing I find amusing about the place is that the sittings are quite near to each other, so there is very little privacy between the tables. Whatever your neighbour is talking about, you are able to hear bits and pieces. It's quite cosy but of course, try not to be nosy all the time or at least keep it discreet if you are dropping ears on others! HAHAHA ... Also, the place is always packed! ALWAYS ... They are doing so much better than Starbucks. BTW, Starbucks is not a big thing here because they serve lousy drinks. I quote that from the Melbanians ...

Grace loving herself for melting the chocs

Eva and me (Do I look like I put on weight???)

Come to think of it, I am beginning to love the place. With just about 8dollars, you get good food and a wonderful drink (although they could try and make the drink warmer ... since it is winter!). I am beginning to like the city ... alot

First Club Ya'oll

2006-07-22T22:54:00.000+08:00

I finally had a true taste of clubbing last night! (Crown didn't count, although I got myself drunk and actually approach, complementing and literally scaring a girl). That's long gone history! Before I start on the club ... let me tell you more about pre-event before clubbing! Yes ... FOOD!

Yesterday, I went out with Brian & Weng and we had a wonderful, very-da-delicious dinner at this Vietnamese Restaurant on Vic St, Richmond. Can't recall the name. My advice, always always-ALWAYS order their spring rolls (not the fried ones!) ... IT WAS SO FREAKING DELICIOUS! Yummy* We had Coleslaw Chicken Salad, BBQ Pork w Shitake Mushroom and Beancurd, and the ULTIMATE dish - LAMB STEW ala Bak Kut Teh Style. I'll skip the pics as it was so mouth-watering that I am starting to feel hungry just by thinking of it! Moreover, I bet you guys are sick of me posting pictures of food!

Clubbing was awesome ya'oll. The music was right! The crowd was happening! The drink was good! The company was fun! Of course, there was one tiny bit of problem. I can't dance. I totally lost the touch. After almost 7 months of no-dancing-at-all, my body moves like a a huge "kayu-balak". Thank goodness the crowd was all so hype (I think on drugs as Brian said it was a normal thing to do here in Melb) that no one notice my "Balak Bounce". There was an exception for the guy who is next to me. I pity him ... I bet he vomited half way through the dance watching me trying to shake it, groove it or whatever you call it! Can't wait to get back to Malaysia and kidnap Jimmy to cast some magic spells on me.

Half way through the dance, there was also a drag queen show. When she came out, I was shocked - not because she was a tranny, but she had a body size of a rugby player. Tall, Build and ... Gorgeously-GIRLY! Then, I became rude, I gawk when the Cher-lookalike started dancing! SHE WAS SO FREAKING GOOD! Her waist practically turns 360 degrees! Her arse, her hip and her botty bounce was as good as Shakira's! AMAZING - for a Rugby player ... It was definetely an awesome show! After that, the crowd had to bear with my log dancing ...

After 2 glasses of Sauvignon Blanc, 2 Jack Daniel coke and a I-dont-know-whose-beer that spilled on my jacket, I decided to call it for the day. It was about 130am when Brian and I left the bar-cum-louge-cum-internetcafe-cum-club. Sat the NightRider Bus back home and chated with the most-friendliest bus driver. Did I mentioned he was cute??? HAHAHA

UPM Racist

2006-07-19T23:28:00.001+08:00

Believe or not, racism still exist in our country! I find it so interesting how the younger generation still has the mentality of a nazi thinking. Ok, I am over dramatizing it. Anyway, just watch the clip.

I can't tell much of it but after some research, the fight was between 2 society (the uni society, malay domineering and the student society, chinese domineering). Am not quite sure what they are fighting about but there seem to be no media coverage on it. After a phone call, not even insiders or the media knows about it. So, its a closed case. But thanks to some media students, future potential journalism students and a beautiful recorder - we have ourself; proof that University students are uncivilized and barbaric too! I present you; the UMPers

My Media Intro

2006-07-18T21:49:00.000+08:00

A media introduction of me. Something different from the usual posting. Let's get to know me ...

Movies during my childhood that I will never forget.
Sound of Music
Mrs Doubtfire
Jumanji
The Never Ending Story
Ace Ventura - When Nature Calls

Cartoons that I still enjoy watching till today
Little Mermaid
Beauty & The Beast
Alladin
Lady & the Tramp
Dumbo

Animations that I watched over & over again
Robots
Shrek
Shrek 2
The Incredibles
Ice Age

Movies I simply love
Cold Mountain
Moulin Rouge
Chicago
Brokeback Mountain
Alfie

Classics
Sunset Boulevard
Rear Window
Vertigo
Citizen Kane
Taxi Driver

Political Movies that I most certainly would like to watch
The Color Purple
Far From Heaven
Gods & Monsters
The Shawshank Redemption
Schindler's List

TV series I watched to sacrifice my SPM's revisions
Charmed
That 70's Show
3rd Rock from the Sun
Ally Mcbeal
Spin City

TV shows I still catch once a while, if I have the time
Gilmore Girls
Desperate Housewives
Sex & The City
SpongeBob SquarePants
Dark Angel

TV series that I watched and fell asleep
Law & Order
NYPD Blue
The Practice
The West Wing
ER (season 2 above)

Reality Shows that I actually like
America's Next Top Model
The Apprentice
Amazing Race
The Mole
Survivor

Reality Shows that I hate
Simple Life
Who wants to marry a Millionaire
For Love & Money
Average Joe
The Bachelor
... and the list goes on ~~~

Important Movies that had a huge influence on me
Forrest Gump
Green Mile
Big Fish
Bicentennial Man
The Hours

I think I am done. This could actually be a tag. Anyone wants to be tag???

Melb w Kenny Part 2

2006-07-13T23:07:00.000+08:00

Let me summarize the entire trip...

Day One ( 06.07.06 - Thurs )

Kenny arrives after not seeing him for almost 5 months! As usual, he made his classy entrance at Tullamarin Airport and I gave him a suprise! Had lunch in a Japanese Cafe @ Flinders Ln. We ordered Okonomiyaki, Katsu Don and Unagi Don. After the mid-lunch, we headed home with a tram. Kenny was shocked that Burwood was so far from the City Centre. When we board off at the PLC Stop (Presbetarian Ladies College - although I prefer to call it P*nis, L*nJiao, C*ck). We did nothing much for the day as Kenny had a long day at Sydney previously so he took an 3 hour nap while I prepared him dinner. Dinner was sweet and sour noodle. We catch up and head to bed quite early.

Day Two ( 07.07.06 - Fri )

Groceries Day. We made payment for Philip Island Trip at Greenhouse Backpackers. Then, we went groceries at Queen Victoria Market. Bought Australian Shrimps, Scallops, Lamb, Greens, Onions, Potatoes and a whole lot of Vegetables. For lunch, we cramped into the ever so busy Mekong - Vietnam Noodles are awesome! Kenny loved it. We stopped at Camberwell while on our way home and headed to Box Hill for Asian Groceries. It was quite tiring and boring - the "normal days" of being a student; traveling all over the place for groceries with public transport. Was back home for dinner - I cooked Assam Fish and Eva cooked Oyster Chicken.

Day Three ( 08.07.06 - Sat )

The day begins by us waking up in the afternoon, travelling to South Yarra and dining at Pacific House. Kenny mistaken it for some Aussie Restaurant but ended up being a Hong Kie Restaurant that serves the freshest seafood. Veri veri veri mouth watering dishes! I love em. But it was lunch time and we didn't manage to order the dishes we wanted (only available during dinner). For the first time we had Singaporean Noodle friend with Curry powder. Weird but nevertheless not bad tasting. Then, we walked from one end of Chapel St to the end! I repeat - TILL THE END. It was a long long walk. We walked into some boutique, a pet store, a bookstore, a cakeshop that serves the most wonderful chocolate desserts (we bought 4) and ate them along the street. Then, we headed home - had a quick dinner (Salsa Pasta) and went to Manchester with Eva and Izmir for Swing Jazz. Had a Baileys and Cosmo! After Man. Lane, we headed to Lygon St for late supper - Italian pizza.

Day Four ( 09.07.06 - Sun )

Philip Island! Here we come ~~~ Boarded the GoWest Bus at Market St and took a 2 hours drive to the Curdies Wineyard. Wintertime = no nice views at grape field. Strong winds thou. Cold and Chilly. I love it. Kenny thinks I am crazy! Next stop; Maru Farm! I love that place. Get to play with a Wombat, took picture with a Koala Bear and pamper the Kangaroos and their Joeys which are so adorable, feed the ducks, 2 Llama, a notti lamb which bite my hand and saw some dingos. Pat a cute pony. Also, we witness the hungry tasmanian devil roaming in their exhibit - waiting for someone to put their hand across, so they could jump and bite. Saw a small Freshwater Croc and bought a really expensive picture taken with the koala. Then, we took a nice drive along the farm side and headed into Philip Island. Went to the Woomalai Beach, enjoyed the sea breeze and watched the roaring surfing waves hit the sands. After that, we experienced the strongest wind ever at Seal Rock (I think that's the name) and saw some cute penguins under the walkway! The main event was of course sitting in the cold waiting for the cute 30cm tall penguin parade. Really an experience worth paying for! Was hoping one would hop into my crumpler and let me take him home! Hahaha. Anyway, had Sofia when we were back in city. Kenny love that restaurtant!

Day Five ( 10.07.06 - Mon )

We met Brian for Lunch at Acland St, St Kilda. We got lost but manage to find a way through. Amazing how a guy who stays in Aussie for 3 years could board on 2 wrong trams in his neighbourhood. Hahaha... Funny guy! We had all time breakfast ala lunch. It was yummy*!!!. Then, Eva meet us for light dessert. She was partially blinded as the strong dry wind blew her contacts off her eyes! It was hillarious. All four of us sat in this Greek Dessert shop. While everyone indulge the most sinful and fattening dessert down their tummy - I dream of only one very greedy thing. To have more desserts! Then, we met with Wing and had wonderful lounge chat time at Westin enjoying Australian wine. Simon called - asked me to work tomorrow; literally beg me to it. I agreed. Had no choice. Kenny didn't mind but I felt REALLY bad. Cooked Meehoon Goreng when we were back home.

Day Six ( 11.07.06 - Tue )

Grace came back. Her boopies shrink thou. That aside, I went to work - LAST DAY! Was late for an hour but I don't quite care. Eva and Kenny accompanied me. Made sandwich for lunch. Eva and Kenny went to the city to top-up some groceries. They got lost too. Don't blame em'. Eva is there afterall. Hahaha. After closing at 530pm, we went to crown casino. I don't get the gambling. We tried thou. Only spend 1 dollar on a slot machine and lost it. I bet some staff from crown pressed the button on "dumb-ass playing; let's cheat him since he won't even know" button. We gave up after 30min being in the casino and went photo taking. After a whole lots of bright white camera flashes, we head home to cook. Dinner was paprik and tomyam.

Day 7 ( 12.07.06 - Wed)

Today's Kenny ah boi birthday! We went and window-shop around Camberwell and Melb Central. Then we walked around the city. Visited theVictoria Library, the Royal Arcade, Myers. About 6pm, most shops are closed and the city became quite quiet. Still can't believe the 5pm closing policy. Not that I disagree but I think it's quite sad not being able to shop in the middle of the night. We had AN early dinner at Quarters. WONDERFUL food I tell you! - Loved the Turkish Dip and the Fish&Chip. Their Ice Chocolate also veri d nice ya'ol! Head home to cook dinner for the birthday boy. Dinner was a 5 course meal;

Greens with Lemon, Olive oil and Black Pepper
Butter Dinner rolls
Brocoli-Carrot with Melted Cheese
Lemon Honey Oregano Lamb
Mustard & Herb Lamb with Mint Sauce

After the scrumptious meal, Kenny open his present. Can't believe he actually thought I bought a 4dollar wine (which was a decoy) for his birthday! I'll leave the details to him. We slept very early. I was about to fall sick. Can feel my nose and body becoming weak.

Day 8 ( 13.07.06 - YESTERDAY)
Woke up about 7am and send Kenny off to Southern Cross Station. Don't wanna talk about it. I hate departures. Miss him alot. Really wish he never had to go. Had such a good time. Didn't know whether he enjoyed Melbourne but I did. I bet he did. I shall not be such a conspiracy freak ... Also, sending him off reminded me of Jenny, My bros, Leo and CYin sending me off at the airport. I miss ya'ol! Now I miss my family too ... sigh* BTW, I fell sick ...

PS - More tangible pics available w Kenny.

Melb w Kenny Part I

2006-07-13T08:16:00.000+08:00

Cookie Muncher is back! Sorry about the dissapereance of 10 days! Rest assured, I did not lock myself up in a cookie vault. I've been spending the last 7 days with Kenny, exploring melbourne. I just send him off - woke up fairly early about 7am. After 2 hours of train travel to the city and back, I am home, cleaning up my room and decided to log online and reply some mails (amazingly, my inbox only show 6 spam mails and 0 from any sort of friends).

Back to the dissapereance, I will blog about it later ... Need to resize some pictures, get some rest and arrange my thoughts before I start a LONG post on it! Till tonight ... Take care and stay tune :P

Just my personal touch on Malaysia

2006-07-04T20:47:00.000+08:00

Is it possible to have time for yourself in Kuala Lumpur? Eva told me that she would work in the day and part-time sing in night. I TOTALLY disagree. In KL, everything is so hectic and out of order. Firstly, you start by waking up early to crawl your way to work. Then, if you are in the working-class category or a mere employee, you are practically subjected to working your arses till at least 530pm everyday and most of time even later - as required by unethical-and-unprofessional-nowadays-bosses who doesnt know the papers by brain and the true meaning of life by heart. After a whole day of work, enduring the all time everywhere-famous traffic jam would practically kill you. How could anyone think of doing anything else than just bum and relax???

Let's not even dwell into cleaning the house routines, meeting friends once a while, attending the gym, being a responsible child by spending more time with family or even a responsible parent by spending more time with your children and not to mentioned - slow down a lil and look at the good small things around you (I bet Malaysia has quite little to offer). The question here is - are there enough time for yourself ??? or do everything is routine based ???

My best buddy James told me once that; "You can slow down, if you want - but then everyone will just zoom pass. Malaysia is like that. We compete to survive. Natural ma! Look at how the government is causing more stress than a better living"

James is right. Our education system stresses good results rather than quality of knowledge and humanity. Our roads suggest that it is an economic commodity rather than a freedom of land where we can just use it. Our society has turn from Bo-Chap to Judgemental. Our social context is competition not education. Our definition of democracy is agreeing, supporting and following the majority even if they are wrong. Our government is working towards the national interest rather than for the people's interest. Our friends becomes people who are just around us to use us when we are needed, rather than sharing passion and lending a shoulder to cry on. Our lifestyles changed from one definition to another with no boundaries - non which I could understand.

Come to think of it ... it's not all that bad. We are save from natural disaster except that we might just destroy ourselves with the current "malaysian" attitude. We are developing with first class facilities but also at the same time further dwelling into our third class mentality. We are open minded and clever to accept that bad things can be part of our culture as well. We do have authentic cultures, beliefs and values which we are destroying slowly and softly through time. We do learn that government listens to us when we rebel more.

and of course

We defend our country when some pathetic bloggers states the obvious and highlights the negative part of our country. Yup! We do that!

*andrewkin continues munching his freshly baked cookies, listening to jazz and wonder what lies ahead for him in Malaysia

Jazz, Soul & I am quitting

2006-07-03T09:23:00.000+08:00

Aint he cute! He is so hawt~! Presenting Chris Botti, trumpet blower - I mean, trumpet player that make jazz the hawtest thing alive! I want his look! I want his talent! I want to be a performer of somesort! I want to be trumpet player too ... but I prefer playing the trombone, the extension is really kewl ... hehehe

After Friday's soul night out ... I got home, bum the weekend and decided to quit my job. My Boss treats me like dirt. He sarcastically insult me, constantly reminding me that a guy needs to learn to work fast with woods, told me my pay was lower than my other colleagues, order me like some slave and mock my previous working experiences saying that my previous working experiences are not usefull for his sales demands. I can't believe I actually stayed for 3 weeks. I gave him the benefit of doubt that he might be nice and ethical until some friends told me that he might be cheating me cos there weren't a contract or any paper that I signed (He said it was done informally and such - AND I ACTUALLY BELIEVE HIM - after all I did get paid). Then, he decrease my pay every week by giving stupid and unacceptable reasons like; my sales are not up to standard and only top notch sales person gets that much a pay. Then, why did you told me my pay was that? Moreover, I only work 2-3 days a week and my clients usually pay their furniture the next few days which I was not scheduled to work. Mind I remind you, I am not even part time - I am TEMPORARY CASUAL worker! In addition, who was the one who kept sending me to the workshop to do carpentry work??? How to serve customers like that???

I skipped some details which I told a few friends. No point repeating some old depressing stories! Cant believe I actually let him sarcastically mock me! ERG! Amazing! So I quit. I got so mentally challenged that I think I might actually commit suicide not because of stress from study but from work instead!

Like my dad said "Why do you need to work? Just go get some more relaxing job like selling apples in the market or something! I can still afford you" . I guess I was blinded by the pay and really wanted to help loosen the burdens from my parents. There goes the cash ... along with every insult, mockery, stress, pain and negative stuff ...

I should start writing my script ... hehe ... my 2nd script :P

The Dullest Post

2006-06-29T00:15:00.000+08:00

According to Google, dull means; "lack of liveliness or animation". So, dullest means "lacking the most in liveliness and animation" la ??? and I am suppose to write something on that a ???

Let me think ...

I think the only dull thing to write is about my work but I swore and promised I would not start about the part-time job ... BUT ... since I got tag by Xavier to write about the dullest post ... I couldn't think of any topic. BTW, I don't have a carpenter's brain. You should see how 'slow' I sand/paint a furniture and how I sustain bruises, scratch marks and multiple laceration wounds all over myself during work! But I realize when you are stuck to a boss like that for so long in a workshop ; you become the dullest person ever live!

Back to the dullest thinge. Currently; work is dull. Boss is dull. No money for shopping is dull, No sex is dull, having little friends around is also dull ! Thus, life becomes dullest! I think... Omigod! I think my post has evolve from dull to dullest to stupid, to bimbo, to irrelevant, to I don't know what I am writing right now!!! Well ... I think that is what happen if you have to write something dullest.

So ... that is my dullested post ever! Is there a word as dullested ??? *Andrewkin does the bimbo pose putting his fingers on his lips*

The weak Heterosexual

2006-06-27T18:44:00.000+08:00

Today I did something no gay guy would do! I speak football with my boss. I not only speak football, I told him I played defence back in school and it's not a lie!. The only reason why I did that was to shut him up. Is it me? or most heterosexuals , especially those with powers - babbles? I know; I am slow and not as skillful as a carpenter - LIKE DUH! but you don't have to keep repeating and constantly reminding me that a "man" should learn how to quickly do up a cupboard - or rather in the furniture jargon; a four drawer light teak entertainment unit. Eva calls it; the TV table. There you go!

I bet if we were wrestling with clothes and scissors - He would bow and kneel to me, praising me like WONDER WOMAN or something! Afterall, I grew with fashion and shopping ... not some dead teak, wooden "TV table". Well, that is obviously not the case. Anyway - I made a point. From now onwards, there shall not be any more complains about work. Since I made my mind and has decided to work there, I just had to live with it. Afterall, giving up is not me. I shall come up with more football stuff (protege"ing" from Eva!) and learn to shut him up. It works... all it takes its a little fact about any football stuff and they totally forgot their main point of conversations ...

No wonder heterosexuals are so weak ... in the mind sense that is ...

Peoples

2006-06-24T23:47:00.000+08:00

I don't get some people. These are the few people I don't really fancy and particularly like ... but they are around me ... always seems to be around me ...

People who expect alot and place their high-stressful expectations on you, WANTING you to achieve it ... aka the boss
People who talk bad about people here, there and everywhere and not shy to do it ... aka the pathetic attention seekers
People who don't make the effort to do something ... aka the bummers
People who obviously knows the obvious but believes that denial or ignorant can overshadow the obvious ... aka the liar
People who ask a million questions and answer themselves ... aka the irritating freaks
People who fight back after a lost ... aka the sore loser

I wish I have a shotgun ... shot'em all down ... Save the world, give myself a rest from mentally being disturbed ...

Things Change

2006-06-22T12:50:00.000+08:00

I've just browse through some pictures taken at least 3 years ago in my room. I should say, those pictures shall remained sealed and forgotten in my picture folders! My goodness; My fashion is all over the place, I look so tan till I am very sure why people those days assumed that I was malay, my body size were much thinner, my hair was the 80s type - where you comb to one side ones!, my room's wall were fill with pop posters ... 0_o ...

AND I can't even pull a smile! It was all over the place ... Believe it or not, I took a mirror and practice to smile! It was horrible. I couldn't get whether I was truely happy, smiling, laughing, grinning, forcing a smile or just pulling up my cheek to form a smile? Thank goodness - I am out of that phrase!

Come to think of it, I really grew alot. I dare to say that my fashion is not all over the place, I still look tan but not till the extend where I was mistaken as a malay, my body is fitter than previously, censored the hair style, my room's wall look like a wall now - no poster! and at least my smile, looks like 'one' now ...

I wonder what will happen in a few years time ??? Would I look different ... Hmmmm

PS - I did carpentry work in the furniture shop, staining chairs, painting cupboards, sanding furnitures and etc ... quite manly job. Never thought of the day I would do something like that ... The dust, the hammering, the boots, the carpenter ala mechanic look ... hmmmm ... Things ARE changing huh ???

The Job ...

2006-06-17T21:06:00.000+08:00

I got myself a part time job. I went for a 5 hour training today (which is also their business hours! - can you believe it???) and cleaned some furnitures, redecorate a living room setup, carried tables, TV consoles, chairs, looked at pictures and catalogues, memorize timber names, colour codes, prices, measurements and of course, attended to numerous customers. First day at work and I officially sold a 318dollar side table - Yahoo wee! It was fairly an easy job. Not much hassle. After the training, Simon (the boss) told me I could officially start work tomorrow.

There was only one problem, I am not quite sure I likey the job.

The pay was good. For a fair 18dollar an hour rate and located not at a very busy/peak area - this furniture shop I will be working at is only 10min cycle away and allows a fair schedule of 3-4 days of not-very-difficult work. But of course, the art of "conversation" in selling was important for the boss. He expect high sales tactics and communication skills. "You gotta keep em in the stall!" and that pretty much freak me out! I ain't no want to be that arse-hole salesperson that follows you around like some hungry desperate hyenas! He is very demanding and his wife is a bitch but his dog is so adorable ...

This might sound ironic for a degree student, but I prefer a brainless job. I wanted this previous job of unloading courrier boxes from a truck for only 26dollar an hour! That was an awesome offer. I get to work my muscles, afford protein drinks and not deal with any customers but only 'dead' boxes! Bad news is; I got rejected 3 times for the job and I can't help but to think that it was my; 176cm + 65kg = Lean Skinny guy, that failed my oppurtunity to get the "muscle-required" job ...

Sigh* I suppose I got to get over it and move on to this furniture job that require a fair brain power and not much muscle-building exercise. Nothing beats a friendly and stress-free environment but this furniture shop has high demands and require a certain degree of brain operations. Come to think of it not many of us have freedom to choose the job we like ...

Conclusion, I am going to work. Will drag myself to work because of the pay ... BUT ... Me still no likey the job

YES!

2006-06-15T12:08:00.000+08:00

YES! My exam is tomorrow! After 2 weeks of revision, it is finally over! I do have another exam next week, but that's pretty much easier than the one that is tomorrow! I did enough revision, went through past year's questions, manage to answer a few question, which also means I am not literally dead and read through all the extra lecture notes. I just hope I don't get a black out tomorrow in the exam hall. I always get that. First the pre-exam butterflying in stomach, then the exam black out and the worse, post-exam grudges ... Got to go back to work! Like Shine said; when the going gets tough, the tough gets going ...

Wish me best of luck!

The list

2006-06-12T20:38:00.000+08:00

Life is beginning to suck ... big time! Without a car, getting physically stucked in a boring, not very happening suburb with a tight monthly budget for expenses and not to mentioned the exam dated right in the middle of my semester break ... Melbourne is beginning to look very dull, boring, emotionally blanked and really really pissing off ... Thank goodness Eva is more ... erm ... "adaptable" to the situation, which I am very sure is not going to last very soon ...

Bad things that happened;

Missed the Philip Island Trip
Missed the Winery Yard Trip
Can't afford the Snow-Skiing Trip
Not approved by Mum for Scuba-diving Trip
Half-cooked revision for Exam, thanks to the holiday mood
Running low on cash for clubbing and jazz gigs
Can't attend the gym - expensive
Didn't manage to get the job I wanted
Missed the Comedy Festival
Grace went back to Malaysia - less noise
I don't have a dog to play with
I can't seem to finish my book

Yeap ... And the list is not finished yet ... It seem like a long one. A dreadful and pain in the arse to list. Ergh ... I wish my friends were all here. At least, we can meet for coffee. Go to the movies. Eat out. Gym or something. I miss everyone. I miss Kenny's company, I miss my brothers gossiping, I miss my sisters asking me out for lunch, I miss Jenny's laughter, I miss Chooi Yin's noise, I miss Brian, Hafiz, Alvin, Leo, Azyei and most importantly, I missed Ju's wonderful moment and baby visiting session! ERG ... THIS SHUCKS!

As for now, I am going pull my arse over the kitchen to cook. Add that to the list;

No 13. I look thinner than ever because of the infrequent meal hours.

Am not quite sure it apply or is related, but what to do? I am not in a good mood to eat ... what more to cook! Can I punch someone now? Anyone sending me a punching bag for my birthday? Oh Oh ...

No14. I'll be lonely this year's birthday ... :_(

Lygon Street

2006-06-09T16:36:00.000+08:00

Grace is going back to Malaysia tomorrow. Will miss her being away. Pray that she will have a healthy and safe trip back to KL as well as her hometown. Personal wishes aside, we (she, Eva and I) actually went out to celebrate her "going away for 1 month" *andrewkin grins with evil and also the end of the semester @ Lygon Street at Carlton.

Girls are ready to go

Lygon is practically a street for foods. The place is quite scary, not because it is filled with gorgeous people hanging out and wonderful food but rather with the number of cafes and restaurant. Simple terms = TOUGH COMPETITION. The cafes and restaurants are like vultures, in the human form of course. They will stand by the street and grab you when you walk pass. Some of them will try and stop you in front of their shop by literally body-blocking the traffic. AMAZING I SAY! These waiters ala salesperson will promote their cafe, differentiating theirs from the others, telling you the best dishes and price they offered and etc etc etc. I left Eva to deal with them. Hahaha ... She is better in rejecting people :P

Then we meet this friendly lady whom mama cook for the restaurant. She offered free garlic bread and 1st free drink. ANY DRINK! We sat ourselves firmly and enjoyed the Secret Stone Sauvignon Blanc which is ultimately the sweetest most refreshing wine I have ever tasted. Will keep an eye on that 48dollar bottle next time I visit the liquor shop. After the heavy Cabonara Fettuccini, I went for a walk to explore the street while the girls end up enjoying their desserts in this chocolate truffle shop. Fattening it is, very delicious they are!

Then, I bump into three Indonesian girls which gave me the friendliest smiles ever. I smiled back - obviously. As I was about to enter the Chocolate Shop where Eva and Grace was half-tipsy consuming their desserts, some girls (Malay from Malaysian - recognized their accent) with tudung gave me the same "friendliest" smile. As I sat down and chated with the girls about it, Eva laughed and said "What to do, you malay market look ma!" Grace agreed adding that there were more malay (regardless Indonesian or Malaysian) girls crossing look on me in trams and streets, previously which I did not notice...

'_' ????

So, Malay girls like tibetan monk lookalike with glasses in office wear huh? What a fetish! LOL

My Marine Story

2006-06-05T23:15:00.000+08:00

I am so sad. I miss my fishes alot. I felt so bad. The tank which was supposed to be in my own home was moved to Kenny's condo due to some unwanted circumstances - family rules. I really thought, I can pull through by showing my deep enthusiast for the hobby. Everyone was very supportive, mum, dad, sisters, Kenny, cousins, Dan, Gary and everyone ... but at the end, my tank had to move. It's either that, or I forgo the hobby - which I can't.

I admit, I spend very little time with it since it moved. Saying that, I never neglect it. I still try my best to be a good owner, or at least an average one. I am willingly to spend alot, save like hell and hopefully provide a better environment for my fishes and also any ife forms in the tank. It's weird, but somehow - I felt that the tank is no longer nearby. It's not like Kenny's condo is far away or it is not accessible. I do have the freedom to attend the tank and go the condo anytime, but I couldn't bear the feeling travelling all the way. It's not reluctancy ... but more like - I just hope the tank is there when I wake up, is there when I want to look at it after dinner, is just there ...

I know we can't get everything we want. Kenny is right, work the best out of it ... I should have not gotten into the hobby ... at least not that soon ... now I regret not because I have it, but because I do not have that capacity and power to own it ... what's the point of having the knowledge, interest, passion and the support for it, but somehow it is so near yet so far inside your heart ???

Erg ... What a thing to think about after the semester end. I am not going to sulk ... Will work things out ... I just hope the plan works ... I pray hard everyday that by, the time I get back - I would have the courage to face my tank again ...

PS - Thankyou Kenny for taking care of them

Tibetan Monk

2006-05-30T16:33:00.000+08:00

I feel like somesort of Tibetan Monk ... maybe Nepal monk ... I dunno ... But I officially had an awful haircut in Melbourne. For the price of $15, I can't complain much ... I look myself in the mirror and had thoughts of actually hanging myself to death. How could I do such a bad thing to my hair! Who would have thought, Andrewkin FINALLY have bad hair cuts! Never recalling having bad ones back in Malaysia ...

Those were the good times in Malaysia. Never had to worry about getting a bad hair cut or hair style. Er Ge is always there to make me look fabulous! Noel's skills were fantastic. My regular barber only charge a RM12 for a clean cut. By the way, I did mention clean cut (safest hair cut in the WORLD i pressume!!!) to the hair"cutter" today. Wouldn't call her a barber or stylist. Is it me or her??? Now, I look like some Juvenile Kid ... even worse, prison escapee ...

Urg ... Maybe I should have just spend more on the haircut, $30 is not that bad an idea ... but ... $30 x 2.7 = RM 81 ... A HAIRCUT THAT COST THAT MUCH???? ...

*andrewkin starts crying ...

Be prepared!

2006-05-26T23:52:00.000+08:00

Be prepared on August! BE PREPARED!

WHY? Cos ... while Britney is busy divorcing again, screwing up her parenting skills and singing motherhood songs, Christina is going to challenge the Jazz, Blue and Soul legends ... Check it out man!

extract fron www.christinaaguilera.com

Christina Aguilera Goes Back To Basics, New Album Due August 15th
Paying tribute to the music that inspired her, pop icon Christina Aguilera will release her third studio album, Back To Basics, August 15th on RCA Records. A modern take on vintage jazz, soul and blues from the 1920s, ‘30s and ‘40s, the album is wildly inventive with a throwback style creating a sound that’s gritty and raw. Back To Basics reunites her with producer Linda Perry as well as creating new collaborations with producers such as DJ Premier.

The sexy first single, “Ain’t No Other Man,” produced by DJ Premier and Charles Roane, is set for release on June 12th. It will be world-premiered on the MTV Movie Awards on June 8th.

“This is a concept album that follows a bold, set vision,” stated Aguilera. “The touchstones are Billie Holiday, Otis Redding, Etta James and Ella Fitzgerald.... what I used to call my ‘fun music’ when I was a little girl.”

Back To Basics utilizes an orchestra, choir, string quartet and jazz horns, as well as techniques that offer a vintage sound and sensibility. “I Got Trouble” incorporates a scratchy blues feel, while “Candy Man” recalls the tight harmonies of all-girl groups from the ‘30s and ‘40s “Save Me From Myself” is an emotionally naked, raw-sounding song dedicated to her husband. “Thank You,” dedicated to her fans, features DJ Premier splicing bits of “Genie In A Bottle” with fan voicemail messages. Also sure to appeal to Aguilera fans is the risqué song “Nasty Naughty Boy” (which has a ‘20s burlesque feel) and the club track “Still Dirrty,” assuring her fans that she’s “still got the nasty in me, …still got that dirty degree…still got that freak in me.”

AGH!!! I LOVE HER! She's unstop-able....nyek nyek nyek!

What day is today ???

2006-05-25T23:46:00.000+08:00

Talkin' to myself and feelin' old
Sometimes I'd like to quit
Nothin seems to fit
Hangin around
Nothin to do but frown
Rainy days and mondays always get me down

What I've got they used to call the blue
Nothin's really wrong
Feeling like I don't belong
Walkin around
Some kind of lonely clown
Rainy days and mondays always get me down

Carpenters

It's not even raining ... and it's not even a monday. But why do I feel so down? Been playing that song over and over again. It felt so right! Right time! Right place! Sigh* I think it's the stress, unproductive week and the missing fun-activity with friends. Burwood is really boring ya know! Nothing around ... Nothing! Now, I am sitting in a pile of research papers, bulks of thick books, scattered papers and in a messy room rushing 3 major assignments all due next week along with a short exam. Can things get any worse???

There goes the weekend ... again!

I need a break. Anyone coming to Melbourne? Bring a rainbow for me ya ... desperately need one!

The Ugly Body

2006-05-23T02:31:00.000+08:00

Goffman, some sociologist freak said that your body represents your identity and it can govern the way you feel and work. So, if I apply Goffman to my body, the formula works;

Unproportionate body + low confident = andrewkin

I hate my body. It's too thin. I have broad shoulders and thin arms. The only muscle attached to it at the moment looks like some miserable sweet potato. I took off my shirt today and I saw horrible ribs underneath (or is it beside) my small, untoned and flesh-LESS chest. Can you believe it? The ribs are visible to the point where you can count them! What happened to the ideology that you get fat in Australia? I definetely eat more than I used to in Malaysia and made a point to consume more meat than usual ... but I still look like Jake Skellington from Nightmare Before Christmas.

AND

I do exercise. I try lifting 6kg of milks everyday hoping that the arm won't shrink. I push up everyday! I sit up frequently. Not high-intensity ones, but some is better than none right? I am obviously wrong! Everything just fall flat! Things couldn't get worse until I saw my flat, square, "cometed" butt. I thought butt are suppose to be round??? I think mine was previously fine but since when it got squared? or maybe I was born with a square butt??? *andrewkin looking worried. Was it the Body Balance I do twice a week? No right? If toning and restructuring your posture means getting a square ugly butt, I am officially taking Body Balance off my exercise routine! Will try on lunges and squats. If the lunges and squats doesn't help - I am signing up for gym again. Gotta waste money, if you wanna look good ...

Shucks ... I think I should just rename my blog to andrewkin-ramblings-with-complains

Dear VV Part II @ Chapels

2006-05-21T11:49:00.000+08:00

It's so hillarious! I know I am not suppose to keep grudges, but I really need to just burst out, explode, open the pandora's box, express, share ... just anything! I assume most of you had read the previous post on my group member, double V. Erg! I tell you! We met up yesterday at Chapel St (where we did our project observation on shopping males) and she was 1 hour 45 minutes late! Where the hell she came from? Perth???? I was obviously furious. Sasha (the other group member) had to leave. I understand why Sasha couldn't stay! The meeting was only for an hour! God dammit. Blacks! (Am not being racist but almost every single Africans i worked with end up giving me shits). Anyone wants to prove me wrong?

Not only she was late! She came with only her handbags. What??? We were suppose to discuss GIRL! try doing notes and pen! Guess what??? I end up giving a solo presentation to her about what I've done as if she is the lecturer. She was amazed. What ticked me off was the part she said "Andrew dear, I think you are overdoing it". What was that suppose to mean? You are the mortified pussy not moving your arse to get work done! *PIST I tell you! Pist!

AND

She even accidentally blurted out "I went shopping yesterday ... and she stopped". Then, trying to find a lame excuse to escape the embarassment, she said " I went out and take pictures for our assignments". She expected me to not give her a death look after her "valid" reason for shopping. Yes ... I didnt give her a death look, but I gave her a disgusted stare. During the entire almost-5min-stare, she presented me her work. Her invinsible, only verbal, with no reference to what so ever authors or unit readings presentation. I thought - and you got the guts to say I overdid my work?

I was mad. I was pissed. I really felt like punching her in the face, push her down on the floor and just do bodystep on her.

Why is killing and murder a sin?

Enough of her. I did have a great day yesterday. She was the only spoiler. Let me brief you what I did. I don't think you guys want to read a novel entry anyway. So ... Here goes

I bought a new crumpler "glamour" bag (yes! that is what their tag says!!! - which is actually a sling bag) and digital camera pouch (future digital camera pouch :P - It was on sale!!! *andrewkin smiles innocently) . The western lawn and The sporty guy pouch. So in total, I have 6 crumplers! hehehe
Me and Eva bump into a gay guy couple holding hands. They look so cute until a stranger walk up to them and started lecturing them about gays with god and gays with humanity and it goes on and on and on, literally embarassing the gay couples in the public. Obviously, none of the public really cared what she said ... Most of them look at her in disgust ( Why is killing a sin again? )
I got a wonderful 1 hour of leg massage from Eva! Damm she was good. Who ever that married that bitch get to enjoys free massages. She's so darn good! Awesome bitch!

That would be about it. Now, if you excuse me - I have to go "overdo" my assignments